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This Carnival Knows Your Name

A Transgender Paranormal Romantasy

From the Paranormal Visitor Universe

Chapter 1: Midnight Escape

Copyright 2026 by Sasha Zarya Nexus

Both kindred spirits June and Goldie who found each other at the Carnival are hunted by the Shadowmaster.
Will June's sacrificial love overcome the Shadowmaster and save her friends?

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Chapter 1: Midnight Escape

Chapter 1: Midnight Escape
The clock on the kitchen wall glowed 12:07 AM, its second hand sweeping in patient, indifferent arcs. June stood motionless in the dark, one hand pressed flat against her sternum, feeling the frantic hammer of her own heart. She counted the beats the way she used to count ceiling tiles in the school counselor's office — not to calm herself, exactly, but to prove she was still there. Still her. Still real.

From down the hall came the sound she needed: her father's snores, low and rolling, like distant thunder that had no intention of becoming a storm. She exhaled.

Go. Now. Before you talk yourself out of it again.

She crossed the kitchen in seven careful steps, avoiding the third linoleum tile the way she'd avoided it since she was nine years old and first learned what it meant to move through a house like a secret. Her battered sneakers were waiting by the door where she'd left them — laces already loosened, ready to slide on without sound. Her backpack sat beside them, packed since eleven o'clock: flashlight, water bottle, a granola bar she probably wouldn't eat, and at the very bottom, wrapped in the blue scarf Morgan had given her for her birthday, the brooch.

She didn't unwrap it yet. Just the knowledge that it was there, tucked and waiting, steadied something in her chest.

The back door hinges gave a thin whine as she eased it open — she'd oiled them twice this week, and they still complained, like the house itself was reluctant to let her go. She froze. Listened. The snoring rolled on, undisturbed. She allowed herself another breath, and then she was outside, the door clicking shut behind her with a sound no louder than a thought.

The night came over her all at once.

June stood on the porch steps, blinking. The air was thick and sweet with honeysuckle — that particular late-June smell, almost too heavy, the kind that got into your hair and stayed there. The grass in the backyard glistened with dew. Above the rooftop of the Hendersons' place next door, just visible over the tree line, a wheel of light spun slow and hypnotic, its colored bulbs tracing lazy circles against the low clouds. She could hear the carnival from here: the distant calliope threading through the dark, notes rising and falling like something alive, music that had no business being this beautiful at midnight.

She had been waiting for this night for three weeks — since the first flyers appeared stapled to telephone poles and tucked under windshield wipers. The Solstice Carnival. One Night Only. Gates Open at Dusk. She'd read every word of them, standing at her locker, while people moved around her the way they always did: as if she were slightly out of phase with the world.

Morgan had seen them too, of course. Morgan saw everything.

We are GOING, she'd texted, with three exclamation points and a string of star emojis. I already asked my mom. She said yes if we're back before two. June. JUNE. Carnival. Us. This weekend. Say yes.

And June had said yes, because it was easier than explaining the complicated truth, which was: she'd already decided she was going. She'd decided the moment she saw the banner — those swirling painted designs, moths and mirrors and stars in silver and gold — and felt something behind her ribs that she could only call recognition. Like the carnival had been designed to advertise something she'd been keeping locked up in the dark for a very long time.

She moved quickly across the backyard and slipped through the gap in the hedge, ducking into the alley that ran between her street and Garfield Avenue. Her phone buzzed in her pocket.

u coming? — Morgan.

almost there, she typed back, because it was true in more ways than one.

The town was different at night, and June had always known this. Daytime Crestfall was familiar to the point of suffocation — the same three coffee shops, the same cracked sidewalks, the same faces that had known her since kindergarten and would never, not once, look at her and see what she actually was. At night the houses shuttered themselves, windows dark, and the streets belonged to nobody. The old oaks along Maple stretched their branches overhead like they were reaching for something they'd lost.

She walked fast, hands in her pockets, head down. This was her default configuration in public: make herself small, take up less space, don't give anyone a reason to look. She'd been doing it for so long that she sometimes caught herself doing it alone in her own bedroom, shoulders hunched, gaze at the floor, as if the walls might report back.

It was exhausting. She was exhausted by it. But tonight — tonight she was going somewhere that maybe didn't require it.

Her mind raced ahead of her feet, cycling through what-ifs the way it always did when she was nervous. What if Dad woke up and found her gone? She'd left her desk lamp on and a pillow arrangement under her covers that wouldn't fool anyone who looked closely, but her father wasn't a close-looking sort of man. He was a don't-ask-don't-tell sort of man, which she had spent years trying to decide was a blessing or a wound. The answer was always: both.

She loved him. She was also fairly sure that the version of her he loved was a version she no longer knew how to inhabit. He'd named her after his mother. He'd taught her to fish. He kept a school photo of her on the refrigerator — a smiling eleven-year-old in a red polo shirt — and June had stared at that photo so many times that she'd started to feel like a ghost haunting her own house: present, undetected, slowly fading.

She thought: If he woke up right now and found me gone, he'd be scared. He'd drive around looking. He'd call Morgan's mom. She thought: He doesn't know who he'd be looking for. She thought: I do.

She was a girl. She had known it with the same quiet, granite certainty with which she knew her own heartbeat — for years now, the knowing had lived in her body like a second skeleton, invisible to everyone else, undeniable to her. She had no language for it at school, not really, not the kind of language you could say out loud in a hallway in Crestfall. She had words she'd found on the internet at two in the morning, words she'd whispered to herself in the bathroom mirror, but words and reality were different countries, and she wasn't sure yet if she had the passport.

Tonight felt like a border crossing.

She could see the Ferris wheel clearly now, cresting the rooftops, enormous and slow. The calliope was louder. She could smell something fried and sugary drifting from the direction of the fairgrounds, and underneath it, something else — something she didn't have a name for, a current in the air that was neither honeysuckle nor cotton candy nor the ordinary smell of a midsummer night. Something older. Something that buzzed faintly against her skin like a low voltage she couldn't quite locate.

Her phone buzzed again.

Caught n Grounded Sry — Morgan.

June stopped walking.

She read the message twice. Then she looked up at the Ferris wheel. Then back down at her phone. She thought of Morgan's mom, who had said yes and then apparently changed her answer, and she felt the familiar pressure in her chest — the one that said go home, abort, this was a terrible idea, you were foolish to think this was for you.

She stood there in the dark between two maple trees, the distant music swelling around her like it was waiting for her to make a decision.

Then she thought: No.

Not tonight. Not this one.

She typed back: Sorry!! Text me tomorrow and put the phone in her pocket. She made herself take one step forward. Then another. Then she was walking again, and the pressure in her chest was still there but something else was there too — something that pushed against it from the inside, stubborn and warm and tired of waiting.

The fairgrounds opened up before her like a door flung wide.

June stopped at the edge of the cracked pavement, breathless and electric. The gates were tall iron arches strung with yellow and gold lights, and through them the carnival blazed: rides spinning, game booths strobing in red and blue, a popcorn cart trailing a white plume of steam. The air smelled of fried dough and axle grease and the particular ozone tang of overworked light bulbs. Barkers called out in cheerful, practiced rhythms — three tries for a dollar, come on, come on, everybody wins — and kids screamed with roller-coaster joy somewhere in the middle distance.

Banners hung between every post: navy and gold, stitched with moths in flight, with hand mirrors showing no reflection, with stars arranged in patterns she didn't recognize. She stared at them for a moment, struck again by that feeling — that irrational, bone-deep sense that these symbols had been made for someone like her, that they were a language she'd been born knowing and had forgotten how to read.

A family pushed past her through the gate — two parents, a little boy clutching a stuffed elephant, a teenage girl on her phone — and June let them go, watching, still rooted to the edge of things. The way she always was. The way she'd been standing at the edges of her own life for as long as she could remember.

She reached into the backpack.

The scarf was soft and familiar under her fingers. She unwrapped it slowly, and the brooch came free — and in the spill of carnival light, it caught the colors: the gold of the gates, the red of a nearby lantern, the blue-white of a passing spotlight. It was small, delicate, its wings fashioned in enamel and fine metalwork, shaped like a butterfly with its wings spread mid-flight. The colors shifted as she turned it — blue to green to a deep, warm gold that looked almost alive.

June had never worn it outside before. She'd pinned it to the inside of her jacket, in the dark of her bedroom, and stood in front of her mirror for long minutes at a time, just feeling what it was like to have it on, feeling the small specific weight of it over her heart.

She pinned it now the same way — inside the jacket, just over her sternum, where no one else could see it. Where she could feel it.

A secret, she thought. A promise.

She took a breath. The carnival music swelled. She squared her shoulders the way she'd practiced in the mirror — not hunched, not folded inward — and she stepped through the gates.

The light came over her all at once, warm and gold and wild.

For the first time in months, she felt almost real. And almost, she thought, was a place to start.