There is very few days let alone a singular month where I do not feel as yourself about July.
You really are not alone luv; I am here for you hunny <3 contact me anytime.
TW (some dark events listed in sumarized detail)Negative reasons are:
January; first time forcebelly admitted to psyche ward by authorities for idiative attempt, fleeing my home from abuse going to a women's domestic abuse shelter, MSA @ ST
February; MSA @ ST, Valentines...because I never have anyone to share it with...ever!, placed in isolation due to false accusations, leading to the closest I ever came to self termination.
March; Birthday...do not like the fact I missed out on being a kid & getting older, my birthdy was never remembered by supposed loved ones, when it was it was late sometimes by weeks.
July & August: Alot of abuse, cannot stand the bloody heat, mum abandoned my sister & I until mid september with our grandma & ran off with our stepdad because no one supported the relationship due to him being a mooching domestically abusive pedophile.
October; Last time Mum & Daddy was together before authoritively forced into separation due to domestic abuse...I have never forgotten any of that.
November; Loss of innocense unwillingly, Blackmailed, video's taken of my by a female pedo released on net, loss of every friend once was outed by someone I trusted for the first time 'coming out' to her about the girl inside, My 12 years of peer abuse & ostracism began.
December; I know it is silly but I never got anything I wanted, quite the opposite & had to watch my sister get what I desired on Xmas. Depressing trip to our stillborn brother's grave every year on the day of his 'birth/death day'