For months, I have looked at a pile of items I needed to take to Goodwill, and found a reason not to deal with them.

Well, today, I found a reason to get rid of them - I am expecting a new bed on Friday.

I feel pretty good about accomplishing this, honestly.

but sadly, all too soon i had to return from my jaunt!

I had to get a tooth removed today. which involved me being sedated.

Trouble is. what I am feeling is exactly the same ad how I felt after my "secessions" with the man who took my innocence. .. .

so you can guess how I am doing.

which is essentially the German equivalent of Rememberence Day here in the UK.

Sorry, folks, stuff you know.

are usual in November but it makes them no less unwelcome!

you probably have heard the saying about having 2 wolves inside of you.

Well, I dont have wolves. I have about 12 variations of myself, all at different ages, and all of them have vastly different agendas to each other.

The fact that I am in any way functional with this going on inside me should get me some kind of appreciation . . .

so this morning, I pulled out my clothes and put them on my bed, and put on my socks.

A moment later, I am looking at the pile of clothes, trying to find my socks, apparently totally forgetting I had them on.

Eventually, I looked down at my feet, and realized I was wearing them.

Sometimes, my brain worries me ...

Frankly, I have had trouble, and hurtfully so with seeing the point of view that the LGBT set has.

Just now, 11/1/2025 in the evening, I was watching the episode of itchy boots, on You tube where she is crawling down the beach in an effort to rescue seal with nets they had picked up in the Ocean. I forget which Ocean. ----Namibia----

Suddenly, looking at her face and the way she interacts with the men around her.

The way she interacts with men... She is absolutely attracted to men...

Now I have to face my own feelings at times...

RED IN THE FACE

I have been getting a little braver with each time I venture out as Leeanna. My angel Mike, gently encourages me , but doesn't push.
A few weeks back we went to visit several old churches. We were unlucky. On the first day all 3 were either shut of the road was closed.
The next day we went to visit Framlingham castle in Suffolk.

So, starting tomorrow and ending Thursday, Sharon is moving into her new place.

This is going to be the weirdest move I've been a part of, and I have been a part of plenty.

Because of the fact it will happen over two days.

Ah, well, once more into the breach, dear friends . . .

Had a tough day today, with both dysphoria and PTSD hitting on me.

hugs appreciated.

always seems to fall on Madeline!
Well it sometimes feels like that at any rate.

Yep, the diagnosis is in, the days of my malaise are numbered!

That's where i'm at!

to end September and welcome October!

Its not easy to own up to your own failures, but if this silly blog is going to mean anything, I have to be willing to talk about my screw-ups.

See, this month has been one of my worst for staying within a budget.

The only good news is I think I understand what happened.

I was in manic mode a lot this month, and as a result bought stuff to essentially self-medicate.

Now, normally, you'd associate self medication with being depressed, but my manic state doesn't just result in basically being high, it amps whatever I am feeling to the max and beyond.

Okay so to give anybody following me an update, Sharon found a place, and has a signed contract.

There is some legal stuff to get through, but baring something bad happening there, she will be able to move in at the end of October.

On a less interesting note, I dreamed I was the star of some TV movie.

I played a woman who inherits a large house, only to find out someone really doesn't want her there, and her dad's ghost is also hanging around.

Dont ask me what it means, folks. I have no idea . . .

Last night I dreamed I went back to college to finish my degree.

I lasted 1 class before realizing I had made a mistake and went to the office to withdraw.

Not a fun dream.

We made it back yesterday about 1 pm. We're both pooped and I did something to my left knee, but 10.5 hours sleep did a lot to restore me. :)

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