I know what it's like to become engrossed in a story and then the author abruptly stops it. It's really annoying, and I'm sorry that all of my stories do that. I have PTSD, anxiety, depression and ADHD, so I'm all over the place writing and in real life.
I finally got a psychiatrist that's helping me with my ADHD. I'm starting on Ritalin next month. I'm going to be closely monitored, but I hope it works. She didn't want to put me on a stimulant, because I have a heart condition that causes a double heartbeat, but all of the non-stimulants interact with my medication.
I'm a mess, with multiple chronic diseases that affect my muscles, bones, and skin, and nervous system and an autoimmune disease that affects the joints and skin (degenerative back disease, eczema, fibromyalgia, osteoarthritis, psoriatic arthritis, rheumatoid arthritis, seborrhea, and spinal stenosis). My current medication works for that mostly. I'm still always in pain, but luckily I have a high pain tolerance. The only thing that makes the pain go away is morphine. I found that out when the doctors gave me it when I was in extreme pain while passing a kidney stone. Morphine is not a drug they give lightly, so they give me oxycodone. That scares me though, because I don't want to be addicted. So I deal with the pain every day and only take it when the pain is extreme.
My mom is reading my current story - My Magic Summer - after I finish each chapter, so that is keeping me on track in writing that for now. I'm really having fun writing this one because I get to express my feelings from when I was thirteen. I was a girly girl growing up, although I was raised as a boy. I'm intersex so I still consider my upbringing a girlhood.
If my ADHD medication works, I'll get back to Fluidity in Space after My Magic Summer is completed. That one's hard to write because it's a reaction to everything going on now, but I do enjoy the characters and the setting a lot.
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I'm the same. I am full of
I'm the same. I am full of ideas at the start, then the interest just fades away. My son thinks I have ADHD. I watch tv while on my phone or laptop. I will never sit through adverts. I struggle going to a cinema. I find it hard to concentrate for long on one thing. But I probably only have a mild form.
ADHD genetic traits may have provided a survival advantage to early humans by promoting traits like impulsivity, hyperactivity, and restlessness, which were beneficial for tasks such as foraging, rapid threat response, and exploration in dynamic environments.
So it's not all bad.
Leeanna
Recommend a Journal
I highly recommend that you start keeping a journal of your wake-up times, time and dosage of medication, side effects, maybe even blood pressure and pulse, maybe meals and bed-time or sleep time. That will greatly help with finding the correct dosage, type and time of administering the medication.
I am also neurodivergent, with ADHD and Autism Spectrum. Though I have so far been unable to get a formal assessment for both. I have known the former for over 25 years and the latter for about 3-4 years. On top of that I have an average natural circadian rhythm of about 25 hours. So I lose about one or two subjective days per month.
I tried Ritalin way back when, but stopped because I got tremendous head-aches from it. But then about 10 years ago my primary doctor in Paraguay suggested I try Ritalin again. So we started with 2,5mg per day, doing a check-up every two to three weeks and slowly upping the dosage or varying the time of taking the dose. During the first week I suffered terrible headaches, but then they stopped. Over a time of about nine months we found that my personal needs were 10mg non-retard and 20mg retard taken together right after wake-up worked best for me, giving me an effect within about 15 minutes and tapering off after 14-15 hours. That allowed me to bring my circadian rhythm to a nice 24 hours. And when I moved to Germany, I just switched to local time for my dose and bye-bye jet-lag.
Unfortunately the first psychiatrist I saw here in Germany refused to accept the report from Paraguay or listen to me and change the dosage. As a result I got all messed up. So in consultation with my primary doctor I stopped taking it. Since then I have tried with two other psychiatrist who were willing to work with me (with two year pauses each time), but my organism was so messed up that it caused more harm than help.
I also know that for some ADHD people taking the anti-depressant Tofranil as off-label has been more effective than Ritalin.
I am such a unique person that some medication will have extremely long-term side effects. Back in 2021 I was give a blood thinner for just over six months because of a lung embolism. Ever since I have had blood clotting deficiency. I took my last dose of blood thinner by the end of August 2021, and in September 2025 a simple paper cut on my finger still requires a very tight bandaid for at least four hours.
In my experience keeping a rather detailed journal is a huge aid for establishing the benefits or deficits of any kind of medical treatment. If you can back up a gut feeling with hard data, it is so much easier to advocate for your self with your doctor or care-giver.