Hello everyone,
so I'm sitting in a Voice Chat on a Trans Discord and talk with some friends about my egg-sins. Of course the talk moves to my eggy TG fiction I wrote over a decade ago. I opened one of my stories here and realised how scarily self aware yet oblivious I used to be.
My freaking author avatar/self-insert did end up picking my chosen name... oops. I guess it still took more than 11 years for the egg to really crack, but hey better later than never.
Anyway, it's pretty amazing to look back into your own history.
Cheers
Beyogi
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Beyogi
Holy crap, how the heck you been?
I can totally relate. To the sins of the egginess. So much wish fulfillment so much I should have realized.
Now here I am getting close to five 5 hrt and writing queer affirming fantasy series.
Have a deliciously devious day,
How I've been
Well, I've been very actively coping :) So not so well, but in a way that sneaked up on me. Mostly in not taking care of myself in regards to fitness/appearance and an ever increasing social isolation/dissociation.
In the beginning I was mostly playing forum RPGs, but at some point that was dropped in favour of singleplayer computer games. In the end I was surviving on games/isekai. Then I had a very shitty job where I nearly had a burnout though I managed to get something more chill before that happened. And then I ran into the story "The Sisters of Dorley" which took the dynamite to my egg. The Dysphoria bible then pulverized the remains.
So egg safely broken I started coming out to friends and family and began to look into transition. I mean I've hung out in this community for three years, I fucking knew if you're trans you should transition if you can. I started out with affirming clothes, but that escalated quickly. Germany is pretty light on gatekeeping, especially if you have money/luck to get around the potential roadblocks, so I was on HRT half a year after my egg crack, started voice training with support of a specialised voice trainer and did laser epilation.
Things have been going fine so far. My family took my coming out really well. "Thanks fuck we finally know what was wrong with you" - apparently 11 years of coping didn't remain unrecognised... Same with (new) job and friends. Though HRT is too slow. Been on it for 1.5 years now and it looks like I'll have to look into FFS unfortunately.
But yeah overall I'm fine :)