Letter to a loved one.
Dearest Paul,
You soared through the skies on metal wings, defying gravity and facing Death at the speed of sound. Low over the battlefield, you became a thunderous force wrapped in a flying cannon, while high above us, you carried soldiers into the heart of war. The medals on your chest shone with the light of countless acts of courage, each one a silent testament to your service. To the faceless soldiers below—myself among them—you were an unsung hero whose bravery shaped destinies. While your courage in battle inspired many, it was your quiet strength off the battlefield that changed my life forever.
Your greatest act of heroism was not in the skies, but in saving me from myself. You dared to love the broken, drunken, and bitter young man who had lost his way—a homeless veteran fallen through the cracks of society. First, you offered me a simple job; then, a dry place to rest my weary head. Finally, as I revealed my deepest secret, trembling with fear that you would turn me away, you chose to love the woman hidden within my soul.
You held me as the nightmares of death and destruction haunted my sleep. You held me as I cried for fallen brothers. You were there when we brought our daughters home from the hospital. You stood beside me as I learned to be a first a woman, and then a mother. On nights when memories of war left me trembling, your gentle voice and steady embrace anchored me back to hope. I recall a night when shadows from the past threatened to consume me—my hands shook, tears blurred my vision, and my breath came in ragged bursts. But you sat with me in the darkness, wrapping me in your warmth. The calm in your eyes and the softness of your touch made the nightmares recede, replaced with the steady beat of your heart and the promised hope that comes with a new dawn.
Over time, you showed me not only that I was a worthy human, but that I was worthy of love. You held me as the echoes of death and destruction haunted my sleep and comforted me as I wept for fallen brothers. You were by my side when we brought our daughters home from the hospital, and you stood beside me as I learned to fly on my own wings—first as a woman, then as a mother.
Once again, I find myself confronted by a challenge I cannot comprehend or prepare for. You have gone on to your Heavenly Reward, leaving me alone once more. The absence hangs heavy, and already the house feels far too quiet. I miss the familiar sounds and smells that assured me you were nearby: the steady drip, drip, drip of brewing coffee, the buzz of your alarm clock early in the morning, the gentle wafting of your pipe smoke, and the soft grunt of pain from old wounds as you put on your heavy boots before heading out to walk the dog.
As much as it pains me I must continue on without you as you would not want me to give up. How I am supposed to do that I do not know, but I know that you’ll be guiding me as I do. When I finally lay my head down for the last time I know that you’ll be there waiting for me. Until then my love I will live my life the way you showed me. Always walking the path of honor and integrity while never giving into my anger without reason. Showing love to our daughters, friendship and a helping hand to strangers in need. Until we meet again my Dearest Paul. I will always love you and hold your memory in my heart.
Love,
Jessie
This short story is in memory of my Husband Paul E. Hackney, October 30, 1954 – February 2, 2026. My he rest in peace.
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So Sorry
So sorry for your loss! Prayers for you and your family! [hugs]
Beautifully written!
I’m so sorry for your loss.
I’m glad you found such a wonderful supporter.
Gillian Cairns
My dearest friend……
I cannot tell you how much I feel your pain, and how much I wish I could lessen it. How much I wish I could ease your pain and help to carry the burden of your grief.
They say that time heals all wounds. It has been my experience that some wounds never heal; but time does in fact give us perspective. It shows us the importance of our memories, and reminds us that those we love are always with us as long as we keep them in our hearts and in our thoughts. Never lose that.
You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Absent comrades.
D. Eden
“Hier stehe ich; ich kann nicht anders. Gott helfe mir.”
Dum Vivimus, Vivamus
Thinking of your letter…….
Reminded me of a song I hadn’t heard in some years. A friend and comrade of mine who died some years back - he was a helicopter pilot and pulled my team and I out of a few bad situations way back when. This song always reminds me of him. Hopefully it will have some meaning for you too.
https://youtu.be/Zl-mJqON7TU?si=vBkKuedSQqqIUfvO
A boy flies for freedom
But dies for the peace
In the clouds, he waits for an answer
But there's no release
It's strange here without you
And it's so hard to see
So brother up in heaven
Please wait up for me
Oh brother up in heaven
Please wait up for me
I still see his shadow
His laugh lingers on
When I dream, we're all back together
When I wake, he's gone
It's strange here without you
This was not meant to be
So brother up in heaven
Please wait up for me
And though we try to change the world
A flower when it's cut will surely die
So why do men with so much hate
Destroy what they cannot create
While we all stand by
We will look back in anger
But you helped us to see
So brother up in heaven
Please wait up for me
Oh brother up in heaven
Please wait up for me
To all my brothers up in heaven, please wait up for me.
I will be along soon enough.
Absent comrades.
D. Eden
“Hier stehe ich; ich kann nicht anders. Gott helfe mir.”
Dum Vivimus, Vivamus
I Too Have Been There
There is no cure for a broken heart, but in time the good memories are the ones you remember.
So sorry for your loss
Thank you for finding the time and headspace to write this beautiful love letter, and honouring us here by allowing us to read it. It brought me to tears this morning, so deep is the love that you shared. Please remember, that that love never goes away, it will always be with you.
My heart goes out to you at the darkest of times.
I hope that in time you may feel up to revisiting your friends here, but until you do, you will have our support and love.
Lucy xxx
"Lately it occurs to me..
what a long strange trip its been."
May his memory be a blessing
Thank you for sharing such a beautiful reflection. I am so very sorry for your loss.
— Emma
Letter
There is no right thing to say.
I recall my sister at my mothers death telling me the hardest comment for her to endure was someone saying "I'm Sorry" Not that it was bad but that would send her into her own distraught state.
I wish you the best. And I thank you both for your service.
Kaetii
so sorry for your loss, hon.
all I got is huggles, but you can take as many as you like
Wonderful tribute
You wrote a wonderful tribute to a very special person for a very significant part of your life. It is nice to relive fond memories, though after a period of grief and mourning, it is embrace the fact that life must go on. I wish, I could give you a big silent hug. Virtual hugs are just not the same thing as a physical embrace by flesh and blood of a fellow human.
Deepest condolences
A portrait of a true gem shining clear. Deepest condolences on your loss.
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My sincerest condolences on your loss. Life can be brutal, but it is our duty to continue on, to endure the trials and the blessings alike, as the latter are often a direct or indirect result of the former. It is at times like these that duty is as heavy as a mountain, but it is a mountain worth enduring.
Requiescat in Pace.