I live on the outskirts of the city of Shanghai. My name was Jun, meaning “talented” or “handsome”. I had just turned eighteen and graduated from high school a couple weeks later. I was lying in bed one night, tossing and turning, because I was not at peace inside. Inside I was a girl, but I had been born a male. How was I ever going to be at peace? The Chinese government had banned the online sale of hormone replacement therapy drugs, and there were so many barriers in the healthcare system. I was at a loss as to how I could possibly transition.