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Very interesting
A most interesting story.
Joanna
Very Touched
Excellent story that touched my being very profoundly.
Hugs
Francesca
Answers
Thank you.
I'm not sure what happens after we die. My heart stopped once eight years ago and the EMT used the paddles to bring me back. No bright light. Just . . . over.
However, I've been going down memory lane a lot lately. I'm proud of my life and my accomplishments. What if the sum of how I've touched people is my "soul"? My Karma? I'll take that.
I've always had a strong network of friends and associates. They've helped me many times in my life. What if "grace" and "angels" are other names for the willingness of those around us to help when we need it? I'll take that.
Sometimes when I get low and feel like I don't have a true friend in the world I realize it's because I haven't practiced enough compassion lately. When I become compassionate the world becomes a much shinier place to live in. And . . . I can live with that.
I'm almost sure life would have been better without the gift of being trans . . . but then I wouldn't be "me." I can probably list a hundred, "Life would have been better had only. . .." But, such an exercise is only bitterness and totally non-productive.
Almost everyone I know is worse off than I am. Yet . . . I've had suicidal thoughts quite often in my life. I've made millions and with some luck will retire wealthy. I've been married to a truly wonderful person for 41 years. I'm starting a new business in my twilight years and recently asked a few friends for letters of recommendation. Almost every one of them said something about my honesty and trustworthiness. That's me and I'll take it.
The answer to violence is NOT guns. The answer to utter despair is NOT self-destruction. The answer to being trans is not being someone we're not.
Thank you for making me think.
Angela Rasch (Jill M I)
Everyone must find their own path
Angela,
I don't have answers for anyone even if someone asked me. I too made that one way trip but was offered a round ticket if I wanted. I brought back no pearls of wisdom. People ask me what Heaven is like and I tell them it is what they believe it is. They don't understand but they will.
Everyone has to make their own choice of what they believe or don't believe.
Life is meant to be lived, not worn until it is worn out.
I wish you happiness most of all. Everything else will fall into place.
always,
Barb
Oklahoma born and raised cowgirl
Very touching and thought provoking
BarbieLee your story was very well done. It evokes some tears and a lot of thought.
Excellent job.
I believe there are Angels
I believe there are Angels all around us, yet we don't see them because we, as humans, have "blinders" on at the moment. We feel feel them special ways, we "may see them" them in a glint of something that our mind and brain tells us isn't possible, yet we know what we saw.
angels among us
mine must get quite the workout
Very nice
and thought provoking story, Barb.
I think I am very lucky never to have contemplated Suicide.
I am having too much fun living.
Hugs,
Monique.
Monique S