If you have ever played chess, you know that sometimes, you have to be willing to sacrifice a piece to gain an advantage.
Well, if life is like a chess game, then it seems that I am a pawn to be sacrificed.
See, it starts with the fact that if you removed any of the more upsetting parts of my eventful life, I would not have met Sharon, and my daughter would not have been born.
More recently, I had the chance to move into a lovely place for older adults, only to have it fall through at the last moment.
But as heartbreaking as that was, if I had gotten the place, I would not now have the money to help Sharon and Sam get a place.
So once again, my potential happiness was sacrificed.
It would bother me less if I had planned things this way, If I had chosen my daughter's happiness over my own, but I didn't, it just worked out that way.
Ah, well.
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Been there done that.
Many of my early life plans didn't work out. I had planned on joining the navy right out of high school and being a lifer. (20 years) That would leave me drawing a GI pension at 38 years old. In the 20 years, I'd have been trained in some field or another and could have and worked 20 years there and draw another pension at 58. Perhaps stretch that to 65 and draw Social Security. That would have left me rolling in dough right now.
However; I had my one and only brush with the law at age 17 and selective service classified me as 1Y because I was still on probation. (1Y, suitable for service in time of war. [Call him just ahead of the women and children.])
If that hadn't been the case and things went according to plan, I'd never have met my wife, had my daughters or grandchildren. My planned financial security sacrificed for that. Now I'm living on SS and managing to get by. But you know, I'd not wish one thing to change if it meant that I'd not have married my wife and got all those things.
Hugs
Patricia
Happiness is being all dressed up and HAVING some place to go.
Semper in femineo gerunt
Ich bin ein femininer Mann
It is very hard to play the
It is very hard to play the "what if" game. No good will come of it. If you had done X instead of Y, maybe you would have died in a car crash. It is impossible to know. We all wish we had done some things differently. I have learned how to try to be nice to people. Even folks that seem like assholes. Later you may find out why they act that way. It isn't easy though.
Leeanna
Pawns In Chess
Can become Queens if they survive the journey all the way across the board. Think about that, Dorothy, you are now a queen for Sharon and Sam.
Not to mention, for all of us!
Dorothy, dear, if you are the sort to say “things happen for a reason (for the record, I’m not), you might say the opportunity fell through so that you would be in a position to help Sharon and Sam. But remember— you were only in the position to do so. That you actually went and did it — that is still sacrifice, isn’t it? If it doesn’t merit a crown in your own mind, at least take a tiara!
— Emma