OH, my goodness. I was doing some fiddling about, calculating the cost of Petrol in the UK ! Glory be, it it really about $8.25 per US Gallon there? It appears to be around 1.30p. My goodness.

So, in working on a story, I've seen the need to educate myself somewhat in Engineering. I am thinking of a super metal that I will call Xsteel and is roughly ten times stronger than high carbon steel, and about 1/10th the weight. There will also be repulsors that use electricity to produce thrust and using about 40Kw will generate around 60 hp in draw bar thrust.

I've flown several light planes that had around 100 Hp +or- but I have no idea what thrust they produce, and it is probably not linear when compared to speed.

Ok, so well I was talking with a half dozen trans-women today, at various stages in transition and one of then just had not come to the realization that the moment you put that skirt on you lose some of your privilege. Later when you get whacked and finally have the shovel handle insertion procedure administered, you lose all your privilege.

Yes, sure the more passable you are the better it is if you simultaneously load the feminine wiles and deportment routine. I have had the worst problem in tuning my approach to become sweet and endearing without actually flirting.

So, recently someone expressed interest in my stories, in editing them, and giving me advice on how to publish them. Those published will likely be Kindle or something like it, but I do want to publish a "dead tree" book just for my own personal satisfaction. That someone would show interest in my stories is a great surprise to me.

So, I am "tooling up" to finish the three stories that will be part of my anthology to be published this fall. Yesterday, I received the suggestion that at least one of my stories are Kindle "book length". Hmmmm. So, now I am full of ideas. Incidentally, so far I am planning to use Amazon, so anyone with helpful hints about using them, be my guest. I am thinking that anything that Amazon publishes must be removed from BCTS, though have not talked with a publicist yet. I plan to do that in June. Most of my stories will either go in the Anthology or be published separately.

I seem to have struck a note in mentioning that I was thinking of living in my car and camping for a couple months. I was looking at it as more of an extended camping trip away from the city in far North Eastern Oregon. It has been my experience so far that if one can get more than 100 miles or so from the big city, there is just less trouble.

OH MY GOSH !!!

Yikes ! A man on Facebook, actually more than one, has have expressed interest in me, and when I started to tell him, he said he did not care. He is an ocean away, so there is relatively little risk he will just show up on my door step ... I think. Hmmm.

He looks quite juicy, like perhaps the Duke of Bath?

Now I am being put to the test. What have I been playing at these last nearly 10 years? Am I a woman or just in love with the idea? This will by necessity move slow as I am not about to buy or let him buy me a plane ticket to cross the pond, um just yet, me thinks. :)

So, I've resumed working on two Sci Fi stories right now that have been in the oven for three plus years. I've been preoccupied with other activities that are both thankless at times and hard work, and now I feel worn out and bitter.

I've returned to writing full time, and want these tales to be wonderful. In College when I was taking creative writing there were lots of admonishments to describe, describe, describe. And I can only think of a few authors here who do a passable job of that, though many of the stories are entertaining, and fun.

Let me make this clear. I know some Aspergers folk and the one's I know are good people, and friends of mine.

It is really hard to say this. I am finished with religion, particularly the Mormon Church. I feel so sad because I actually believe in the Mormon "stuff" too. They have been really loving and kind to me and I healed of so much stuff and pain.

Much to my surprise, I have begun a new story. A few will not like how some words are spelled. Get over it. For the rest of you, this is very off beat for me and I hope that you like it when I finish.

Actually I do not care if you give me Kudos or comment on it either.

Gwen

It is doubtful that I will have time to write again, so I am just going to throw a few ideas out for what we could call, "Muse Candy", for anyone to use.

I have been on (Estrogen) Vivelle dot .1 since they decided that my kidneys and liver were to weak to metabolize the pills.

I am asking this here because I know there are geeks on the loose ere.

Today, I realized, Duh, that the internet search protocol on a smart phone is different than that of a computer.

I'm the Christmas Nut I suppose and used to rival Chevy Chase's "Christmas Vacation" when it comes to decorating my house.

In two weeks, it will have been seven years since Sephrina recruited me to come to this site. I was a right mess when I got here. Looking at the Calender, it must have been the night that I returned from the hospital because of suicidal ideation, and had just been told that on the next day, Christmas Eve, I was being thrown out and installed in my own apartment, thus ending abruptly a marriage of nearly 40 years. By the time the divorce was final, it would be 40 years, 4 months. What the hell, this was supposed to be for life !

Enough Computer Talk !

I've just started to re-read the classic, "The Unicorn's Gift". I just know that it will be as entrancing this second time around as it was the first.

So, tonight I went to TDOR. I was surprised that the attendance was around 200 people, about 2/3 MtF folk. FtM folk were there along with some Lesbians but not many gay men according to my GADAR.

The following video shows a wonderfully vivacious transgender woman. And, CNN gave her great and respectful coverage. As to her appearing in the Victoria's Secret show, who knows?

I just have to say out of complete and utter frustration that those who make sex toys are clueless idiots !

I saw a blog about De-transitioning and read the blog it referred to and the replies. Days later, it finally sinks in that while the circumstances surrounding my coming out and transitioning are dreadfully sad, and painful, the last few years are the best of my life.

It is wrong, just wrong for me to keep trying to be a gate keeper any longer. I just wanted to save people pain. But, what if in trying to save people pain, I just increased their pain?

Just feeling a little melancholy and shaky this morning, and I have to sleep before I get up at 7:00 AM. I've been approached my a PHD Doctor from a big local university who tells me that he knows that we have not been treated very well, and he wants me to help him make that better.

Those who know me, can confirm that I live a quiet life, and try to avoid the drama and hand wringing that makes so many of us miserable. I am no activist, not one bit. And, I am pretty much a prude, just trying to do the best I can to live like billions of other women.