When I first started this journal, the only real rule I set for myself was that I was going to be as honest as I possibly could, and I think i am succeeding.

Mostly, it really hasnt been much of a struggle, other than the difficulty of finding the best words.

I have talked about good times, bad times, and all the times in between, and most of the time, I have felt no hesitation.
Indeed, most of the time, i have been anxious to share.

But today, I find myself struggling to write this.

I want to just babble on about my writing, or whatever.

Lana Lawless wasn't suing for the right to play on the LPGA Tour but instead so she could obtain LPGA Teaching Professional Status.

Had another series of flashbacks yesterday, and thank God for the friends who chatted with me online as i worked my way through it. I am finding all kinds of ironies in my struggles, both with the assaults and with my gender. For example, I realized that i owed to my abusive step-father a thanks, because by forcing us to move when he did, I was able to escape from the monster who was using me. And despite his other flaws, he never touched me sexually, which gave me some opportunity to heal enough to function.

Well, it has been an interesting day, to say the least. I am still fighting a bit of a cold, so I chose to stay home and not go to church today. I went on a chat site to talk to some friends about my depression, and while we were talking, I started having a pretty strong flashback. One of my friends there has my phone number, so she called me, and listened while i cried to the point i could barely talk. Feeling slightly better after i unloaded, i fidgeted, played video games, and made lunch. Then, some remnant of my flashback nagged at me, and i started to write.

May everyone here at BC have a great day tomorrow.

I have a new story that will be published either today or tomorrow. It's a one part Spells R Us tale. I won't say much except it is gentle and not very long tale.(A one-parter) You could also describe my plot as what would happen if you mix the SRU Wizard and Groundhog Day together.

For my Duty Honor Country Family readers, the next chapter will be published next week. I took a couple of days off from DHCF to write the Spells R Us tale. It been rolling around in my head for at least two months.

I would like to take a moment to talk about how the story "Choices" evolved. Like some other ideas i have had, this one came to me while I was struggling to sleep, and originally, it was a lot darker.

At the time, it was going to be about a straight male who is presented with horrible choices, of which slowly transforming into a woman is the least objectionable to him, even though he is not transgendered. Everyone believes this transformation is his own idea, and is totally supportive, which he finds frustrating.

My mother-in-law passed away at 3 p.m. this afternoon. Her daughters were with her at the time and had just finished praying the chaplet of the divine mercy.

I'll write more about Nanay at another time.

My Nanay aka mother-in-law suffered two ischemic strokes last Saturday. At first we thought Nanay may recover from them, but beginning Tuesday she started sliding badly. An MRI today showed Nanay's brain to have more damage than first diagnosed. Nanay is all but gone now.

Tonight my family will eating food from a recipe passed down from my parents to me. Unfortunately the children aren't so crazy about we're having(Dad can we go to Lindburgers instead?). So what is the meal?

Tuna Casserole

The ingredients three cans of tuna fish
One can campbell's cream of mushroom soup
One pound ziti macaroni
butter
milk
bread crumbs

The meal takes 55 minutes in the oven at 350F

There are just too much going on at my home right now. As I previously blogged, my mother-in-law's thyroid cancer has recurred. It has metastasized to her spine and Nanay underwent 10 radiation treatments. Doctors talked about surgery, but she is 75 years old and no family member thought Nanay would do well with that form of medical treatment.

Nanay began radiation treatments tonight. During the day she was seen by a great many nurses and doctors. Here's one conversation.

Neurosurgeon Nurse Practitioner- "Why are you here?"

Nanay- "Well, my daughter married an American."

I think everyone can figure out why that exchange is so funny. My wife certainly thought so.

Yesterday was the first day back to school for Palm Beach County students. Once again, I'm parent to a female High School school student. I better keep the rock salt loaded shotgun handy to chase the boys off.

My mother-in-law(Nanay) was admitted to the hospital today. She had a pet scan on Monday and the results showed her thyroid cancer has metastasized to the spine. She's had stage IV cancer since 2006 but this doesn't sound good.

Oddly enough we got a similar phone call a few years ago.

After a month of poor health, I'm getting back to my writing or at least trying to. Is there a BC author or commenter from Australia who can help me? I'm trying to determine the time in Alice Springs compared to other parts of world, and the websites I'm finding are telling me time in that part of Australia is currently 12:21 a.m. when it is 10:51 a.m. where I'm writing. Note the 21 and 51. Is CST Time Australia, a half hour different from other places?* I always thought time zone changes were hourly. IF its say 9:51 in Bombay, its something 51 in all other parts of the world.

From the Las Vegas Sun-

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This is not the first time men have entered the event, but this year’s number was the highest – and some of their antics are not likely to be forgotten anytime soon, especially by female players.

You got to love Florida

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ISLAMORADA, Fla. — Sheriff’s dispatchers didn’t know what the problem was when they got a frantic 911 call at 1:20 a.m. All the caller could do is yell his address and tell them he was “crushed.”

According to Deputy Don Dalton, the head was so heavy the man couldn’t move, but his cell phone was close enough to his hand that he was able to call for help.

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Call this delayed karma. The water buffalo was shot a decade ago and was given to its present owner.