My mom said that today at breakfast. Made me cry. I wish I could help her, but I dont know how....

Hi

Theres a new chapter up, I'm not very happy with how BC has formatted it and i've no idea how to put it right!

Srill, it shouldn't stop you enjoying it

Maddy

I am mulling a short story idea over and over in my mind. It would involve a young M2F trans girl and her estranged father (mother is no longer in the picture - not sure why yet). In the story, she (the trans girl) desperately wants him to attend her 'life wedding' but he is 'hung up' on her being a trans person...he can't get past the thought of her once being his son. Continued...

Well, it feels like I passed a milestone, and it was a painful as passing a kidney stone. I went to bed, called my dog to join me, and holding on to her soft fur, I wept freely, and for some reason, kept repeating how sorry I was. Now, I think I'm a little better for it. As odd as it sounds, it feels like I accomplished something important by being able to do this.

My original idea was to write a longer piece but I decided that you'd all be bored with it after a few pages, so I stopped where I did.

Female intuition leads me to suspect one or two of you might like a bit more of this, so when I have a few minutes I'll possibly do a second installment but that will be it.

I see we're coming up to sixteen hundred episodes of Bike, do I presume the regulars want me to continue with that as well?

So do let me know on both of these if you would.

Angharad & the >^^< team.

So yeah, my company has recently started a joined venture with HBO and as a special we could get our picture taken on the throne.

I'm rather pleased with the result, and thought i'd share it here :)

I'm going to be taking a small break from writing her story after this last chapter to start working on another project for the Dark Realms Universe. Chapter 5 in (Un)Life is almost finished and I should have that posted in the next day or two. I say all of this because it will be a while before I actually post anything for this new project of mine, as I'd like to try and finish the story, or get close to finishing at least, before I actually post any of it. (Un)Life has alot of story left in it, and I will be getting back to it once the new one is out of the way.

I've kinda reached a place where I'm being forced to choose between moving forward and risking what I've already accomplished. See, the next steps are kinda tricky - I have to somehow navigate the ex, change my name, and then I'll be as close as I think I can come as surgery is not likely. But the risks are high too, I flop it with the ex and I worry I'll be tempted to just go back into the closet until I die. I think that's why I've been delaying putting my name change in high gear, much less confront the ex. But standing still isnt much of a option, at least not for long. Ah, well.

Today I visited the "officially sanctioned vampires".

I had an appointment with the endocrinologist to find out if there are any medical influences to my transsexuality.
They took only about eight or nine vials of blood to analyze my current hormone status and look for potential chromosomal irregularities.

Now I have to wait a few days for some numbers ;)

Realistically I expect unremarkable values inside the normal range, but surprises are possible.

After that I will start to think about the next steps. (or rather plan the next steps I'm thinking about for years...)

I can't believe that I can't get my butt in gear to write anymore...

I hate to do this, but I think I will post what I have, then post scenes as I get them in my head. I think it would likely make people happier than me not posting anything for such long periods of time.

Stand by for short posts Chapter 28.1, ETA... a few minutes from now.

I noticed the hit count for visitors is over 19,793,000. Wasn't just yesterday that we (I think I'm allowed to say 'we') hit 10,000,000. What a great job done by Erin and the others who know how to make this refuge so nice.

Portia

I have a feeling that yesterday's sense of being fragile was in fact a bit of a mood swing caused by my hormones. I guess I've still got a bit to learn on womanhood, giggle.

I'm feeling very fragile at the moment. The wrong thing at the right time or even the right thing at the wrong time, and I will crack.

I post these without comment:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/01/21/washington-state-ga...

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/01/19/michael-bloomberg-s...

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/brandon-thomas/tennessees-comi...

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/01/20/death-penalty-anti-...

I don't have an ex-muse either.

The black dog -- a *huge* Black Dog -- that took up residence a few years ago is shrinking a bit. The critter's not gone, but things are less overwhelming.

My writing time is limited, for now. I'm working ~12 hour days at a job involving flight safety ( a.k.a. BAD THINGS can happen if it isn't right.)

I am now on Twitter if anyone fancies following me. I am still trying to get the hang of the system, but I am at @TanyaAllan

for the amazing job they have done in updating our home away from home on the internet. Words alone cannot express MY appreciation for all they do and all they have done to make this the PREMIERE TG Fiction site on the net, but words are all I have so,

BRAVA, BRAVA, BRAVA!

For they are jolly good ladies, for they are jolly good ladies. For they are jolly good laaaadieeees... which NOBODY can deny!

From my heart, Thank you, one and all.

Catherine Linda Michel

Last month I had posted a request about a story I was looking for. I ended up finding it myself and I posted it here. The story is called Beauty and the Vial http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/33443/beauty-and-vial