Today was a day of double meaning for me. I celebrated Thanksgiving with my entire family together for the first time since 2001 and it is my 38th birthday. I know I have a lot to be thankful for with having my family together, but on the other hand I feel down because I haven't been able to achieve the goals I had for my transition. When I originally set out living fulltime in 2005, I had a goal of having my SRS completed by this year. 2008 has been a nightmare for me both personally and professionally.

I wish there was a way (and if there is I haven't found it) to see who (if anyone) has favored my stories. It would be interesting to see.

In many cultures transgendered individuals are reviled, as are those with different sexual orientations to the majority. On the whole, I suspect most of us are more danger to ourselves than to others. I saw a paper which suggests mental illness and self harming, including suicide is higher amongst GLB individuals. It didn't mention transgendered, but I should imagine it's similar for the same reasons, pressures and stresses from the majority to either conform or be persecuted.

Maddy Bell has agreed to let me start posting her Gaby story at Stardust one chapter a week.

In the news this morning is a story about unrest, and even a bombing in Bangkok. I hope that Sephrina is safe. We should be praying for her. I imagine that she is freaking out.

Gwen

Having come through the Rememberance day, I have a few observations to make. The statistics surrounding T life frighten me right out of my wits; making me want to hide in my room and never go out. There are some things about the killings that strike me though.

Several of them were after midnight after the tgirl had left a club alone. One was while she was walking down a country road alone. After a while I begin to see a pattern. I think about what other women that I know would do.

As I begin my 7th month in RLT, I thought I'd pause and reflect on the past 6 months.

You lot probably know how anti the gun laws in the States I am, but in a quirky bit of fate, I actually went out this weekend and did some shooting.

Some sort of attack brought the server down at about 8:15 PST this morning. Bob and I are working on figuring this out, so the site may go up and down a bit for awhile.

Hugs,
Erin