And I feel fiiiiiiiiinnnnnnneeeeeee

I'm trying finish Antifreeze for the contest. I've had several delays last week and a power failure so I'm behind and need to catch up so I might be unable to comment on all the wonderful things being said. Just know any comment made between now and then are HUGELY appreciated.
*Great Big Hugs All!*
Bailey

Oh great my buttons have just gone into the negative zone.

I'm now at T minus and counting.

Today I am celebrating my 7th Birthday as a legal woman. I remember that day well. I got up that morning and felt like a weight had been lifted. I dressed in my red skirtsuit heels, hose, blonde wig and did my makeup and then drove to the courthouse for my name change hearing. Standing there hearing the bailiff call me by my male name, knowing how I looked, was a little nerve wracking. The best look I got was from our family attorney who was there representing another client. It was priceless!

I just stumbled across news that Brandy DeWinter has a pair of new stories up. The links are http://www.tigger-n-brandy.net/brandy/nightwind_tnb_format3....
and

Well, I just got home from seeing the psychologist about doing the day program in the new year, and it went well. For now, the plan is that I would join the groups on my days off, and we'll go from there.

Baby steps, baby steps ....

http://movies.yahoo.com/blogs/movie-talk/why-jamie-foxx-chan...

He wanted to be mistaken as a woman.

It has happened again, so maybe it's time to stop thinking that it is a coincidence. This is the second time in 2 weeks and it still gives me hope that I can pass.

Today I spoke up on the lack of recognition of FtMs within this community. In response I was told that my concerns were silly, and I also witnessed a rather sexist remark. I found this to be insulting and hurtful, both personally AND impersonally.

I believed that this community was intended as a place for ALL people with some form of gender dysphoria.
Today I see one that caters exclusively to MtFs, and permits sexist remarks towards men.

(Sorry about that - accidently copy/pasted the wrong thing)

Last night, I had a bit of a flashback, and coming out of it I found myself shaking with anger.

Story comments, in case anyone wondered, are for commentary on the story and the writing thereof. They are not for speculation on whether the author had the right to post the story, or for guesses about the writer's political opinions, mental states or educational status. Nor are they for inflammatory comments about current social climates or current affairs. Note the qualifier there, inflammatory.

Hi folks,

Well everything has been sorted out as well as it can be and I am now settling in after moving to the other side of the country. I am now getting organized and settled in my apartment in Montreal and trying to get an internet connection and such sorted out here. What does this mean for all of you? Well now I have some more time to relax and write and I am almost finished the next chapters of both Bloodlines and Trial and Heiress.

I've been watching comments from people over the years on stories, and some of the comments are accurately pointing out deficiencies in stories - either things that were implied but not obviously so, or things that could have been added for more description. As an example, I did revise "Customer Service" to add fix for Alison, and it was well received. After posting Dear Jenny, I had to do a small revision to Cousin Trouble to get it to sync up with the story line.

I lost my voice at work last night. Even swallowing hurt. I'm hoping this goes away soon ....

After some sage advice from someone on the site, I've decided I'm going to try writing the whole story or in this case, the rest of the story before I post any new chapters. So depending on how long that takes, it might be a while before there's a new chapter of it up here. I'm not saying there isn't going to be any new stories from me in a while, I might throw up a Non-Underappreciated One shot here and there...maybe a Christmas story as well. I did a lot of soul searching the other day after writing my last blog and decided that my Ego is a Big Jerk and I'm NOT listening to him anymore :)

If you couldn't log on earlier this morning, there was a corrupted users table, due to an earlier crash. It's fixed now. :)

Hugs,
Erin

I just get really sick of hearing about some disaster or something every few years. Now, I know people who are freakin about the Mayan Calendar thing. Sigh. I just want to shake my head.

I'm watching "A Muppet Christmas Carol", and its as good now as it ever was.

who helps keep Top Shelf online and working for all of us who depend on it.

for an early present from one of my favorite authors and lookee here. Not one, but two!
http://www.tigger-n-brandy.net/brandy/nightwind_tnb_format3....

today in the world of sport is that the 101st edition of the Grande Boucle,

to the families of the children killed by a gunman at Sandy Hook school in Newton, Connecticut earlier today. I can't begin to understand the pain and heart ache they must be feeling and so close to Christmas.

I just feel so sad.

Angharad

I had given up on my previous endocrinologist, with good riddance. Two of the three visits I made to her office I left feeling pretty bad about myself, and I was already pretty low. Anyone that has been tracking my blogs know that I was pretty near to giving up on life.

Hello,
For those of you who remember April Ashley from the 1960’s here is a lovely article about her receiving her MBE yesterday,
Here’s the link:

so too tired to think about writing, besides, you had two from me yesterday.

Hopefully, Bike will be back tomorrow.

Angharad

I promised myself--and all of you--that I wouldn't talk about my story or the contest again here, but as with most of my promises, it was a far easier thing to make than to keep.

But I do have a good reason for breaking my promise. I've been spending the last few days--in between medical appointments, Christmas parties, and personal responsibilities--trying to pull together some 17,000 words of story fragments into something coherent. I have enough material in a decent-enough state of completion for the first two installments. From the looks of things, my little story is going to be a novella before I'm through, if not a full-fledged novel.

I got a call from the Grey Nuns hospital where I was supposed to be taking part in the day program in January. The doctor I talked to said the day program may not be a good fit for me, since I work nights and have Samantha in the evenings. But I will see him a week from today, and hopefully he can find some other alternative.

I miss this as a regular feature. Use this one to bring yourselves up to date or remind yourselves of what you're missing.

http://www.gocomics.com/skinhorse/2012/12/12

I know my latest story is dark, and probably not everybody's cup of tea. Frankly, its really hard to write too, so I'll be trying to wrap it up as fast as I can.

The story posted today included the tag as being Forced Fem, however I did that so as not to offend some of those who tend not to read stories tagged as such. It's not true that it was forced on the boy unless you consider the fact that it was mother nature that decided for him. Thanks to all that do read it and I hope you enjoyed it. Best wishes for one and all for the holiday and an extended thanks to the staff of B.C. Joe

Hi again folks.

I'm really pleased that Cruisin' is still being read and even more pleased to say that I'm almost two-thirds of the way through the rewrite.

Well, last night, my brother gave me a lift to work, and boosted my car. While we drove out there, we talked about life and death, faith and feelings, salvation and sanctification.

Two are by me:

http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/31075/mommy-s-magic-sw...

http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/3843/unusual-visitor

One by Andrea Lena Dimaggio:

It's funny how stories tend to get away from you. I came across two things last night that I guess I'm surprised it doesn't happen more often. On Crystal's Cyberboard, there was mention of a TG story site I'd never heard about and clicked on the link. On the site were the first two installments of "The Relucatant Girlfriend" which they never asked if it was okay to post. I guess it's not a big deal since I was still credited and at one time, those stories were on at least six different sites including one translation into French.

This is an interesting article from a member of the LDS church. I first saw it on Facebook when a member that I know here in the Portland area posted it. I don't really know how to handle the news, and I hope that those who are passing it around, don't get hurt. So far as I know, the church does not at all understand the issue, but I will say that they seem to be trying harder to figure it out than any christian group that I know. Sure, there was pain and hardship in the past, but I just want to give them a chance and see where this goes.

I just got a question asking if another “Eerie Saloon” story was coming or if Chris and I were on hiatus.

It's slow work, but Chris and I aren't on hiatus.

Been doing a lot of thinking about what it is that makes a man a man or a woman a woman, and honestly, I dont know.

Hi everyone!

This is a blog about yesterday mostly but a bit of it carried over to today.

After 5 months to the day (which is pretty cool by the way) Transitioning Home is complete. I hope you guys enjoyed the ride. It was a lot of fun to see everyone's reactions. I know it was rough sometimes, but I do hope the happy times balanced that out.

So what did you all think overall?

OK, this is my absolute last word on the upcoming contest. Honest.

Well, as the saying goes, I have good news and bad news. The good news is that I'm still writing.

I really wanted to wait before I posted this until I understood it myself, but that is probably never going to happen. I don't think I have the mental capacity to wrap my brain around the issue and part of me is hoping that as a collective group we can come up with at least some theories why I am so fucking worthless that I deserve all the shit that comes my way.

Got a jobinterview comming up wit the Enviroment, Nature and Energie departement for an opening in their ICT division basically as a kind of gofer (doing the recycling of old 'units', maintaining the website, vendors, general support/helpdesk, serveradmin, etc.)

I just came home from seeing the gender doc, and while it was a good visit, I'm awfully shaky, as I spent most of the visit talking about my rape. That was because I was trying to find out what resources might be available for me outside of the rape crisis center, and as it happens, there is some.

The program they're recommending for me is called "Partial hospitalization", but its less scary than it sounds - its a group therapy session that takes a couple of hours during the day and works with a variety of problems.

Has anyone heard from from Bobbie C. as last time she said anything here was that she was back in the Philipines and they just went thru a bad Typhoon there and there are reports of many missing. I just want to know that she is Okay. Thanks!