just so no one panics, my computer is down, so I will not be online for a bit.

everybody take some huggles to keep you busy till I get back!

Yep, there's no doubt about it, we are on the cusp of Spring

So its dream time again!

Last night, I dreamed I got an opportunity to work in a school as a teacher's assistant.

So after walking around to get a feel for the layout of the school, I went to the office, only to find out the program I was part of had been canceled, and they really didn't know what to do with me.

So last night, I dreamed I was a superhero.

I had this gun that would stun someone without permanent damage.

I got summoned to join a group of other heroes facing off a group of villains.

I was doing well, when suddenly I was hit with a case of dysphoria so bad I could barely walk, and one of the other heroes half carried me to our target.

Dont ask me, folks.

some good news, some, well disappointing

so my subconscious has decided to let me graduate from school, and now sends me dreams of being in the working world.

For the last week or so, I have dreamed of working in a daycare, at a water park, a newspaper office, and last night, working as a manager at a restaurant.

Since I never did any of those jobs in real life I am not sure where they are coming from, or what my subconscious is trying to tell me, if anything.

My brain is weird, which probably doesnt come as a surprise to anyone here.

I will not be posting any chapters this week because I've been really sick this week after bouncing back from the flu. I spent the past three days in bed with a high fever and mostly sleeping. I'm still feeling weak and kinda terrible so don't think I can focus on writing anything quality. So, I've decided it's best to just take the rest of the week off and recover since most of it has been a write-off anyway.

*big hugs*

Amethyst

got some encouraging news from my doctors visit yesterday

My weight is now 292 lbs, and my BP was 100/68.

Both of those are massive improvements for me.

or not, Brizzle is once again gripped by horrid weather, this time 40+mph winds driving the albeit otherwise light rain, through everything!

Last week, I went to the "big city" (I live in a small town; 2500 pop.) to do some shopping. Most of the time, I dress out of the butch side of my wardrobe; women's clothes but the effect is androgynous. That allows people to see me the way they want to. I'm always surprised when they look at me and address me as a woman, but it does happen and when it does my voice doesn't shake their perception.

but they'd be sadly disappointed hereabouts at the moment!

even if it is a little chilly!

My muse has given me a very odd little story.

Expect it soon . . .

Just reading in the News on KOIN, a CBS affiliated station. It seems that some Oregon politicians are in favor of banning MtF transgender athletes. In this case, I hope that common sense stops laying facedown in a mud filled fox hole.

I'm not a Medical Professional. Over the years my experience has me believing that there could be a workable solution. If a prepubescent male loses the testosterone from their Gonads (Balls) and gets on a suitable source of Estrogen, then perhaps he, now she, could compete in girls sports.

and new beginnings?

So i possibly won't get to post new stuff for about ten days.

Well, the last couple of days have been full of changes.

The first was some good news about my aunt, who has been struggling with swollen legs, which is that the new meds she is on has been helping.

The second bit of good news was Sharon getting back pay from her job, so she won't need anything from us for the month of February.

The news gets worse every day. Has time run out???

So, the events in the states has me feeling very helpless, which is triggering my PTSD rather badly.

all hugs and prayers appreciated.

I have started to dream of my family. a couple of nights ago it was my grandmother, last night it was my aunt and her family.

I really dont understand my brain . . .

and all that

so I have been getting this reoccurring image, and I think I will have to figure out a story to go with it.

Here is the image:

There is a new form of VR, that taps into the brain of the user, to produce an avatar of their inmost self.

A group of trans people have been offered the chance to be beta testers, and being very attracted to the idea, they say yes.

The initial setting is a park, and one by one, the group comes in, getting to see their authentic selves, many for the first time.

Last week, I blogged about taking my wife to the doctor. As I mentioned in that blog, I was wearing obvious women's pants and tops and had my hair fixed in a way that would lend itself to reinforce my gender presentation. The point of that blog was to highlight how relaxed my wife has become about how I'm dressed when we are out and about together.

On Wednesday of this week (tomorrow in my timezone) I will become homeless. My landlords have sold the property I have spent the past 8 years in and served me with a no-fault eviction order 2+ months ago. Quite separately my daughter decided to leave after 14 years with me, including her transition from girl to young woman. I, myself, transitioned almost 2 years ago after a long gestation.

Some will already be aware of this much.

My biggest issue has been the lack of affordable housing near me. I also needed to downsize drastically.