I was watching the news last night on the local FOX affiliated station. Much to my surprise they were interviewing my cardiologist. He was explaining “broken heart syndrome” in connection with Debbie Reynolds' death.

Not too many years ago he had given me the same explanation. We were in his office going over my medical history, including my family’s health.

I had told him that my father had died in his sleep from a surprise heart attack. Less than a week later, my mother, who had not displayed any heart problems, died from a “heart attack.”

okay, I want to talk about dreams for a moment.

I am not sure I understand, much less agree with all dream analysis, but when patterns start get being repeated in dreams, its at least possible your brain is trying to tell you something.

For example, I've had a lot of "searching" dreams - dreams where I was looking for a person, a place, or an object.

Well, today was kinda a shaky day.

It started with me being rather fragile as I went to bed last night, and then I got woken up at around 5 AM by my mom in a panic because she had locked herself out of her car.

She finally calmed down enough to phone AMA to get them to come and unlock her car for her, but by that point, her struggles had kinda infested me and I spent most of the day struggling with being more fragile, which made a pretty busy day just a bit less fun than it might have been.

It has been twenty years or more since I was researching transgender or transsexual employment. So don't ask me for names. Computer crashes have wiped most of my years of research. I know, back up, back up, back up. Problem is, even the people we trust our computer repairs to manage to dice our drives. You aren't interested in that though as you already know all the computer horror stories. Probably lived through a few of them on your own.

http://www.nydailynews.com/news/national/8-year-old-transgen...

Apparently only what is on the Birth Certificate matters.

I'll have new stuff written soon. My MMO friends tossed me a wrench this holiday season...with a brand new computer. It just arrived today so I've been busy transfering files and things over. So it might be a few days before I get back into writing again :D. I am working on something though...I will give you a hint...there are cows in it LOL.

I've been stuck on a huge story for nearly a year, and had something happen early this morning. It is not clear to me if this was a spiritual vision or simply the product of my own demented mind. My view of the current and developing world promotes lots of anxiety.

The last week of the year is often given over to reflection on the year that is about to pass, so let me add my own take on 2016.

Out in the world, its been a year of tremendous change -not a lot of it positive. Trump, Brexit, the growing power of Russia, terrorism, - its been pretty hard to find a lot of good news.

Plus, this has been the year of the Celebrity Death. I honestly cant think of a year where more famous people have died, and not just b or c listers, but huge names have left us this year.

Of all the satiric poems that point out the limitations of spell check software (and volunteer editors, for that matter), this one is the best I’ve seen. Sum tang two reed four yore con sit ration bee four righting Amy sing to pub lash.

Vera Rubin, the astrophysicist who confirmed the existence of "dark matter", has died at 88.\

Here is an article about her:

http://www.npr.org/sections/thetwo-way/2016/12/26/507022497/...

http://www.usmagazine.com/celebrity-news/news/carrie-fisher-...

See you Princess, in a galaxy far far away.

Well that's the first big day done and dusted, at Bell Acres pretty much all I did was cook, eat and sleep - well I did end up going through some old photos, well four years old, and reliving one of my German trips. Not the best Christmas ever but certainly better than the depressing episodes I've had in recent years and the darn right miserable one last year when I was cold and couldn't cook properly due to a broken cooker blowing the electrics!

Well, I had a mostly nice Christmas. My mom was working and brother and my sister-in-law were gone for the weekend, so it was pretty quiet. I did my laundry, took out the garbage, binge-watched "Dirk Gently's holistic detective agency" on Netflix (it was awesome), and then when my mom came home we went to Sharon's and had a supper and gift exchange with her and Samantha. Other than her calling me "Todd", it was a pretty good time, except I had a bit of a panic attack.

WTF? Wearable Coffee?

yup

I received a polo shirt for Christmas made with s.cafe fabric. S.Cafe has a patented process to turn USED coffee grounds into yarn, which they then use to make clothing.

So you can drink your coffee and wear it as well.

http://www.scafefabrics.com/en-global

Their website ^^

This has been quite an unusual year in many respects. But the strangest of all is the fact that two holidays, or religious events depending upon one's perspective, coincide; Christmas and Hanukkah. Well...being a faithful adherent to Paganism, it doesn't take much for us to be dancing around a tree. Indeed any tree will do and any time of year is 'kosher'? As for lighting candles, well...we light them at the drop of a hat...or any other piece of clothing. And, being Irish, after a pint or two...or three...we're likely to do so with greater vigor.

Have a steampunk Xmas and an alchemical New Year!

Let me take this opportunity to wish you all a very Merry Christmas, and hope and pray that 2017 turns out better in every way than previous years

No commercial - I shall be producing books as and when RL allows, just watch this space.

It is amazing to realise that I published my first book for cash back in April 2011.

I am only a hundred books short of having sold 50,000 books through Kindle alone, so my heartfelt thanks go to all of you who have been kind enough to buy my humble offerings.

Merry Christmas to one and all y'all. Hope Santa is good to all good boys and girls.

Family sharing requires that we have our family Christmas dinner on Christmas Eve this year, so my daughter and son-in-law can visit his parents in Lincoln City on Christmas. So we are busy this morning getting the dinner ready for this afternoon.

Just a quick suggestion for a possible site upgrade. If possible at some point, it would be really nice if the You have a message notification were made bold and/or put in a more noticeable color. I find sometimes it is very easy to miss the notification in the overall site presentation.

thanks.
Merry Xmas and/or Happy Weekend.

I almost wiped out at work today.

My knee buckled while I was working. I managed not to fall, but it took a while before I could get my breathing and heart rate back down to normal.

I know I'm supposed to do more cardio exercises but I'm pretty sure that's not what the doctor meant ...

Good news! I am going to be writing a series of stories, a little under twenty chapters, from what I can tell right now. The story, titled "Kayleigh's Story," is one I am very excited about. It will deal with themes of love, revenge, new starts, friendship, and modern life. I will ideally be releasing a new chapter every Sunday at 10 PM, starting January 8th. In the meantime, check out some of my new stories, including Christmas-themed "All Was Well" and "The Good Bridesmaids," my personal favorite of the tales I've written so far.

Love as always,
Kayleigh01

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Hello, everyone. I’m looking for some help.

I managed to remove the “PDF Complete” banners from the PDF file that contains this story, and am posting it here as an attachment. I hope nobody minds, as I did not have a way to send this file to the author.

EDIT: To those who find their way here from the blogs page, or from the recent blogs list on the front page: Warm Hearted’s first story was posted as a PDF attachment, which was made by an unregistered PDF maker that added “nag” banners to the PDF it made. I was able to remove the banners, and attached the resulting PDF file to a blog entry, which I posted to Warm Hearted’s author’s page.

I've had another go at my website and now have two, it's a work in progress! www.shiraz.me.uk is the main site. Work on Tammy 7 continues and I hope to supply a few thousand words a week.

It's been a rather busy two weeks or so for me. Seventeen days, seven stories or chapters posted here in that time span.

I can't recall ever expending as much energy in writing as I have over that period.

Very scary moment for my mom last night.

She was taking the dog for a walk, when she spotted a man on the middle of the street forcing cars to go around him.

When the man heard my dog bark, he saw my mom and started running toward her, and she barely managed to get back inside and close the door behind her before he caught up to her.

Could have been very bad ...

Over the years I've been exposed to numbers of different cultures and it has been fun to learn what I could about their idioms and accents. It was interesting to learn something about the Thai culture, their way of writing and their accents. To me their writing seems oddly similar to Hebrew, not that I know anything mind you.

Well, I got some tentative good news about the money I am owed from Walmart. I got the last piece of info I needed to send in the forms they asked for, and mailed everything off today. I have been told that I should get a check early in the new year.

Should I cross my fingers?

I have a new book releasing on Amazon on January 6 for those interested. The book is currently available for pre-order. I hope those of you that have read my stuff in the past will enjoy this one as well.

Born From Revenge

I just wanted to let those who were following my story, and some who were upset for the break, what was going on. i didn't want to say anything before hand, maybe I was afraid to jinx anything or maybe I was just afraid to mention it who knows. They psyche is pretty twisted on the best of days.

Just wanted to let my readers (all three of you) know that it might be a while before you get anything new from me.

Depression is kicking my butt at the moment, and between that and the pain/panic dance I am running low on spoons to the point where just making it to work is gonna be a challenge this week.

Sorry, I hope to be back to bubbly soon ...

I've been working on a piece here since Saturday evening. I put in about ten hours before I started having trouble staying awake, so I copied what I had over to Open Office just in case, then wandered off to bed, catching twelve hours or so before I woke up just after midnight EST. I've spent most of the time since then back at the grind here after checking nothing had been lost.

I have seen this a half dozen times.

Simple keyboard maintenace..

turn off computer and unplug keyboard from computer.

On the back of most keyboards is a couple of phillips head screws. Remove all of them.

This exposes the inside of keyboard. usually it's a film of some type clean this with windex. Many of these are plastic with a silver film on them if it's tarnished black anywhere clean with a pencil eraser. (note windex is an ammonia based product. Rubbing alcohol will do if windex is not available)

Does anybody know what happened to Chapter 17 of Weddings and Reunion I missed it as I had power cut and when I returned it had vanished off Bigcloset I need to read this to complete the story

Eliza

I have two stories (books ?) that I have been working on for years, one of them I started in the early 80's on an Electric Typewriter. Lately, I have begun to see parts of both of them begin to come true in real life, and that frightens me because I think that my health will not hold out long enough to finish either. Sadly, the only people I would trust to finish them are not likely to outlive me by much if at all.

Haha - I sat at my PC intending advancing my 3 narrative items but hit -- typing issues

After 'crunching the issue' I noticed a strip 'a keys - the #9 key, the "o", "l" and period key were suddenly dead!

I thought of trying to write avoiding the consonant, vowel, digit and punctuation, but the challenge proved too daunting

...as the last sentence proves.

OKAY.

I know of several older writers here that are among the best authors that I have ever read, yet they do not publish their work on Amazon or other retail outlets because they are in the closet and have a spouse or family or IRS issues and cannot afford the risk of publishing.

I am not an attorney, but I would think that if they are unable to profit from their work, why wouldn't it be possible (and legal) to assign the rights to a suitable NPO or transgender support organization, like Mermaids?

I just got back from Graduation where I graduated Summa Cum Laude the only one in my major. I now have an associate's degree in applied sciences software developement. I'm still trying to come to terms with the fact I finally have a degree and I graduated Summa Cum Laude.

Not sure what I did wrong, but my last story is not showing up for reading. The first part was visible yesterday, but when I added a new chapter somehow I threw something off because now it doesn't show up anywhere aside from my author page. Anyone know what I should edit to rectify things?

Whenever I get stalled on one story ...or my A.D.D. muse gets distracted... I'm more inclined to 'change channels' than to just 'turn off the set' and walk away....

Why is it easier to start things than to see older existing things through?

I fully intend to finish the two tales I've already stretched out so far.... Secondhand Life and Summer of Love both have conclusions I still love and am just meandering my way to... even if the here-to-there is still a bit fuzzy.

So, I'm writing several little one-shot stories at once here, and my naga one (finally)

But I have a question related to what is probably my most controversial story, and I'd like some feedback. If anyone wants to discuss this question further with me, please PM me as I'd be more than eager to hear your personal thoughts or whatnot.

Sometimes, being Bipolar can be a real bitch.

And sometimes, the demons in my closet come calling a little too loudly.

Today appears to be one of those days. My muse has fled, and, once again, the Beast takes over. It was an enjoyable ride, as it was. I don't know when Haylee will return, but hopefully it will be soon. I really like her, and sometimes wish she could stay just a little longer.

C'est la vie!

• An emperor rules an empire.
• A king rules a kingdom.
• A prince rules a principality.
• A duke rules a duchy.
• What rules a country?

Was busy with messages lately. Bumped back to the beginning of messages and found dozens of messages I never knew was there and never responded to. To any and all who feel I may have ignored them. I'm terribly sorry if I hurt anyone's emotions. The Blonde excuse no longer works as my hair has become snow white. A few years ago I came to BCTS with no more than a passing interest as people were asking me permission to post my stories here. I would drop in, skim the story to make sure it wasn't altered and bounce out. It would be months before I would pass by again.