I haven't posted it yet, but will do so tonight. I just wanted to give a warning because it's rather depressing and not very good. But I don't have anything else to post and it's been sitting on my hard drive for a month or so, so I figured I'd post something, no matter how bad. Yeah, really makes you want to read it, doesn't it? ;)

I am really struggling to hold on to my faith right now. I have had moments of doubts before, but not like this, where the idea of a heaven seems laughable. I feel 3/4 dead, just going through the motions.

I used to weep and kill my pillow after my shrink said that my emotional development had been arrested. My God, I can't remember her breaking any laws! At the time, she said I was emotionally 12. Oh, God no! I did not want to go through being 12 again. Imagine me driving on busy freeways! Yalla!

So, now she will give me 17! GAH!

That must be why I listen to Shakira, Katy Perry, Taylor Swift, GaGa, Ke$ha, Avril Lavigne and other pop grls.

Another person recently inquired about a Space Opera story they were looking for. This brought to my mind Marina's story The Last Frontier over on Sapphire's. She seems to have left a large portion of her later works unfinished, and I just wondered if anyone ever hears from her, or knows of her, or maybe if something happened to her. She authored quite a few really good stories then just faded.

I was having an actual date the other night and before hand we were talking about her coming over to eat. I said I'd cook. She was surprised and asked if she could watch. I said sure because I know she didn't quite believe that I could, I asked her what she liked and Kymm aparently likes Italian. I found that neat because she's Korean.

Anyway...Here's some of my recipes:

Tageltelli?

Okay, we’ve been back a week and already we’re planning our next trip with the Limousin in mind.

The houses we visited the first time we went were appalling and we wondered whether anything resembling our dream house was going to be possible this time.

If you were a sworn officer in the last 20 years in a relatively large metropolitan area, or have done vice, I need to talk to you, please. Just needing a reality check here. We can talk on the phone or skype or email ...

Much peace.

Gwen

I know a lot of folks here don't go to FM anymore...however there is an excellent story on there called "Lilim Tales" two of four chapters have been posted so far:

http://www.fictionmania.tv/stories/readtextstory.html?storyI...
http://www.fictionmania.tv/stories/readtextstory.html?storyI...

It would come under the heading of Sci Fi/Fantasy for those who like this kind of stuff....

{{Hugs}}

This looks interesting, hope the links work.

http://www.guardian.co.uk/lifeandstyle/2010/jun/02/transgend...

Part 2 was up today.

http://www.guardian.co.uk/lifeandstyle/2010/jun/16/transgend...

Have a look see.

In writing, sometimes I get so involved in the plot that I fear I am going round the bend sometimes. Part of that is due to the fact that lately while doing research for my stories, I have found out things that are even more astonishing than what I have written!

Back in April I had the chance to spend a week at my friends' condo at the beach. They had planned on going for Spring Break as usual, but something came up and they had to change their plans, so they told me to go and enjoy myself, which I did. Then the Monday after I got back I went out for a jog, and woke up the next day in the hospital.

I edit for a number of authors here, and do not ask for any notice in print, either on their stories, or elsewhere. I do it to help them with their stories, for as most will admit, And I certainly will on my own writings. The author is usually too close to the story. When looking it over, the author sees what they meant to write / thought they had written, instead of what actually went down on paper ( or in pixels on their screen). It is always helpful to have at least one extra set of eyes look at the story.

Alright, for various reasons I have been a bit slow preparing the next section of "Princess For Hire" for posting, so here's the scoop. Would you rather:

A) have a short posting (two chapters) today, with another short short (single chapter) within the next two days? Or

B) wait until tomorrow and get all three chapters, with a normal update on Sunday as well?

Soccer can be a cruel game. Many times the score isn't indicative of which team played the best.

For a game that probably lacks in significance you'd think the USA won the most vital contest of the year 1-1. I coached youth soccer long enough to have four of my children play for me. I've experienced my share of ties and know they're bittersweet for both sides, even in under the best circumstances.

I find that I am struggling with guilt in regards to my rape. I had a moment of clearity in my counsiling thursday, when i realized I actually missed my attacker after i stopped seeing him. This, coupled with the fact that i experianced pleasure on some level during my attacks has really thrown me, and I am having trouble wrapping my head around it. Sigh.