For those who have been following my story, For Want of a Comma, below is a picture of how I sorta imagine Tommy looks after changing into his uniform. Except for the shoes, I created the uniform from scratch, imported them into Second Life, then took a photo there.

so, my car's windshield wiper fluid distributor seems to be on the fritz, and my check engine light is on. which means bye bye more of my emergency money..

I'm pretty sure whatever is wrong happened when I accidently went over a high sidewalk, so it's nobody's fault but mine.

Sighs, I'm seriously tired of being a fuck-up, and right now I'm struggling with feeling like everybody around me would be better off without me.

Perhaps someday I will write about this, but not now. None of what I am relating has to do with religion, rather more about Anthropology perhaps? Apparently this work is housed at the British Museum of History.

Hey everyone,

So it's that day again and I'm feeling bleh. Things still aren't going great in my life and I'm in the middle of another insomnia/nightmares cycle again so I get maybe two or three solid hours a night once I finally drift off and then I wake terrified from nightmares, ptsd flashbacks, or a mix of both that are so realistic and terrifying that it takes me a good hour to shake them off and realize what reality actually is.

Of the two stories currently being published:

Ch-Changes is five chapters long
Accountancy Can Be Deadly is in 12 parts

This evening I saw several posts looking for authors or members who have not been seen on here of late, and it reminded me of the post I saw some little time ago asking about Elsbeth, who happens to be one of my favorite authors. She, like many others seems to have dropped out of sight.

I was wondering if anybody has heard from Persephone lately, I know ahe needed about a year for her classes or something like that. I so do hope she returns soon and I also hope she does well in her schooling.

Charlotte Van Goethem

For some reason, one of my old stories popped into my head last night. It's called "Payback House" and its a pretty typical example of themes that run through a lot of my work, the theme of the struggle between justice, vengence, and mercy. Its here if you wanna read it: https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/44335/payback-house

This blog was originally posted on my website, but I thought I'd share it with you gals (and guys).

Wow, has it really been two months since my revelatory little blog? Geesh my how the time flies! I just wanted to again thank all the ladies who've reached out to me and offered their support, it really has helped me pull through what has been some really challenging times.

Saw my girl, Mya, laying on the floor. It's a lazy day for both of us. Nothing really happening, so she's laying on the hardwood floor.

I've tried getting her a bed to sleep on, as other of my dogs have had.

Bonnie said, "I thought you might like to go to the bathroom. You know, before I lock you in the closet." She nodded toward the door with the padlock.

I stared in that direction. "What-what happened to Moose's last girlfriend?" I suddenly asked.

Well, I had a rather down day today. It started with a bad dream that left me feeling like I was a pretty horrible person, and I just never really got out of the rut.

Ah, well, tomorrow is another day ...

Sorry about this everyone. I really tried to get the new chapter of MSPD rewritten for this weekend, but it's just not happening.

Hello out there,

I'm in the process of revamping my "Off time" fan fiction.

Recently, I wrote aother prologue for my book "Adrian". I decided not to use it, so instead of it sitting around collecting dustbunnies I'm repurposing it for "Off Time".

So I spent a bit of time last night in the emergency room. At such times, my mind begins to wander... or is it wonder?

For example, What exactly is the Tooth Ferry for? Where does it cross. I thought there was a bridge there.

Do you leave positive or negative feedback when you purchase batteries online?

In Greek mythology, was Chiron known as the Centaur for Disease Control?

Is Irony truely the opposite of wrinkley?

I just tried to send a message to someone, and got a message that the attempt to send the message failed, and to contact my site administrator. When I tried to send a message to erin about this, got the same fail message.

So now I am doing a blog entry, as a way to contact my administrator. My apologies for wasting everyone else's time.

for a late posting?

so one of the few things my brother and sister-in-law have asked me to do around here is trim the grass in the summer.

But about a month ago, while I was using the electric trimmer, our neighbor swore through his window at me for apparently waking him up. since then, I've been terrified of trimming the lawn, and found all kinds of excuses not to do it.

The lawn now looks like crap, but I feel worse. sighs ….

I took Cuddles to the vet this morning and got the bad news. The confusion, walking in circles, weakness in the hind legs: possible brain tumor.

And a fair-sized bill to find out if anything could be done -- or not. She was at least 14 and maybe as old as 16, she hadn't seemed happy in at least a year.

Spending today in limbo. My mom, who was in the hospital a couple weeks ago due to severe stomach pains (ulcers as if turned out) went back in last Friday as she'd become non responsive. Dad called my sister yesterday to let her now and for her to call me. They think Mom has pneumonia, and her lung function was already horrid due to her many other health issues. She's been on oxygen and bedridden now for too many years.

Elsbeth was posting every week with Freyja's Daughters and The Lost Queen, two posts a week, then in the second week of April this year she just disappeared. I loved her DarkRealm Universe stories that she wrote six or seven years ago and was thrilled to see her return. These new stories were developing into her best yet, and then.....poof! Does anyone know if she is okay?

Chapter 1 out now!

Okay, so I had a bit of a nervous breakdown earlier tonight.

in thinking that the size of tasters or adverts for books are getting bigger - except mine of course and one or two others, and is this fair because it appears that one or two of them would take up half a page of broadsheet and certainly pretty well fill my screen as I scroll down them.

Perhaps I'm getting old and crabby, but it doesn't encourage me to want to post much at all.

I’m getting forgetful, I can’t believe it, but it’s true.

I forgot that there’s a “kudos” button here. For at least a year I suspect.

Everyone who has posted a story since last summer please give yourself a point to make up my laxity.

I just posted the final chapter of "Tommy - The Trials and Tribulations of a Girl?" And I think it was the hardest thing that I've ever written.

I've found a story that I "think" I was working on over 20 years ago, before I came out. I remember writing it but it could have been as far as the late 90's, or before. There is a shameful amount of correction work needing to be done.

Sam has a dream that's almost a nightmare. But what is more scary, going to school dressed as a girl -- or a bagful of possums?

PTSD guilt is the worst.

I'm struggling with guilt right now for not telling anybody how bad things were at home.

I was too afraid they would blame my mom.

Sighs, hugs appreciated

here in Blighty!

Those of us who are of a certain age will remember the sit com, Barney Miller. It's about the 12th Precinct detectives. I was watching it late last night and the 1975 episode, Vigilante came on. It features an arrest of a cross-dressing teamster, for an "unclassified misdemeanor." We're all used to seeing cross-dressers in comedy being the brunt of the gag. In this case the cross-dresser was treated with respect and the comedy lines were all about the "unclassified misdemeanor" and the others reaction to him.

https://www.cnn.com/2020/08/11/health/tomboys-lisa-selin-dav...

I am angered by the ignorance in this CNN Article. It's all about it being OK for girls to be Tomboys, and just goes on and on. Yet, if a boy tends to be effeminate, many of us know there is hell to pay.

It is amazing that they had the cheek to publish this article.

Gwen

Didn't wear my floor length, wrap around denim skirt and bling loaded denim blouse when I went to OKC. Too many people to talk to without over powering them. Just cowboy boots, jeans, satin blouse, hat, and you know what on my hip.

'A year has passed since I lost my home...'

There's going to be a break next weekend to allow myself and Snowfall to get well ahead but ....

Vantier a Whateley Tale chapter 20: encroaching shadows!

Well someone on here blogged about my Vantier stories (Sammi! grin!) and I noticed when some other reader psoted a coment that I ahd not done a chapter in a year!

so 2 years late (my bad!) I post a new chapter for you all to enjoy

and what shadowy danger grows in this chapter!......muhahahahahahaha!

Everyone probably already knows. Trump finalizes rule defining gender as a person's biological sex. Like Deuteronomy 22:5, many are using Harry Benjamin's illogical and so stupidly wrong, rules defining trans. Have I let everyone know in plain enough English how much I hate what that man did to all transsexuals? Thank you Benjamin for all the lives you complicated and those you destroyed for your "Standards of Care". I pray you receive your just reward in Hell. I think Dr. Grazie Pozo Christie, policy adviser for The Catholic Association put it very succulently, transgender are insane.

It's the only holiday in August, my birthday. :) I'm 72.

I'm thankful for a lot of things in my life and one of those is BigCloset which I have been operating, with the help of friends, for almost 21 years.

It's fun and I'm convinced it helps keep me young, despite the occasional stress. :)

I'm kind of passed the age at which I expect birthday presents, but if there is anyone out there who would like to know that they made me smile, they can send a gift through the Hatbox via the links in the right-hand column of this page.

Once a month, my church hosts a special evening service called "Haven" for individuals on the LGBT spectrum and their allies. Well, the young man who normally runs the service has asked if I would like to lead it for the september service. Thanks to Covid, we'll stream me speaking, so no crowd to get nervous about, but still, something I've never tried before.

Wish me luck, and assuming the service will be available afterward, I'll drop a link.

I was just surfing around checking old dead links to remove when one popped up for me finally. http://www.oocities.org/b_dewinter/hotter3.html?20186 If I may suggest so boldly, check for stories you haven't seen before cause the link didn't work for quite a while...….nothing new, unless you have not been around since the dawn of time, like me

August 4, 2020

I'm pleased to see that there has been 5000 views of my February 2018 story "A Woman-less Beauty Pageant: It was the Zipper’s Fault 1".

As a first effort story I'm extremely pleased about so many hits but at less then 850 words I wish I had waited and combined ALL the "A Woman-less Beauty Pageant" chapters into a single longer story. Perhaps someday I will.

well, my new computer seems to be working, so I'm gonna give that a tentitive yay. But on the boo side, because how prolific we've all been this last couple of days, my latest story has dropped way down, and its at least possible some of you who would have normally checked it out have missed it. so just in case, here is a link: https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/86208/tinker-tailor-s...

Bonnie helps Dolly with her disguise as Moose's girlfriend. Makeup changes her looks but at the last minute, Bonnie adds something else...

So once again, sorry for not posting yesterday.

Today was the first time I had ever seen the word, "Clovergender" and I am frightened, really terrorized. It means that T folk are prone to be Pediophiles. I'm shocked.

but I have no 'en'