So after three failed posting attempts and errors (MY STUPID FAULT), I was finally able to post a new chapter of Gamma Girl.

https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/109947/guess-im-gamma...

Okay so we got a notice a week ago about the owners bringing in another round of roach control, and since I was sick and mom had her arm in a cast, we kind of panicked, but then we got help from Mike and Carol's handyman and we were as done as we could be this morning when we thought they were coming.

Then I looked at the notice again, and realized they are coming on Thursday, not today.

I mean, at least we are ready, but we could have done without the stress, you know?

is now live!

And a few days ago I finished reading The Station’s Late Nite Princess, and started in on Frills, both of which are among my favorites.

In Frills, there is a scene where the main character’s home is toilet papered, the cars covered in shaving cream, and the house egged, by a group of high school students for the 28th time inside of a year. What made this stand out was the news story I saw this evening about a high school teacher in Georgia who was killed Friday night by a group of five teens while they toilet papered his home.

So here i am, trying not to lose this post!

Finally got around to posting a new story. Sorry for the delay. Life sucks sometimes.

https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/109877/guess-im-gamma...

got some bad news about my mom's arm today.

I phoned the hospital about getting her cast off, and was told we were supposed to have it looked at 2 weeks after she broke it, and either they forgot to call us or we missed the call.

So now, if there is damage in there, its been too long to do anything about it. and she has limited mobility in 2 of her fingers.

sighs, I feel like a complete failure in terms of looking after her.

That i posted a blog entry on Wednesday but it seems to have vaporised, please tell me i'm not losing it!

Maddy

Most of my online purchases are through Amazon.

Tonight I saw something on Mark Zuckerberg and what I read surprised me. Apparently he is no friend to gender variant people.

I used to be a Facebook member and one day I got hate mail from someone at Facebook and suddenly, I am one of the enemy.

This is a great surprise.

Gwen Brown

I have just come back with another meeting with Mike ( my personal angel. I wasn't so happy with my makeup this time. I don't get much practice, and I was very nervous going out.

My mother has been very ill and now has dementia. The last time I met with Mike was in November, I was told my mother was dying and had to rush back before I got a chance to dress. She recovered, and told me she went to heaven and was told she had to go back as it wasn't her time..
A near-death experience? You best make up you're own mind. I do believe there is something to it.

Good news: we got laundry and groceries done today.

Bad news: I am now a mass of pain.

"Thanks for the assist, Apex," said Brace, not taking her eyes off Proctor.

"Like you needed it," Apex replied, with a smirk. "Bad boy, here, definitely bit off more than he could chew. Even taking us by surprise he barely held his own. Once you showed up and gave us a breather..."

"You... can't beat... me..." said Proctor, struggling to rise and failing. "I am in the top echelon... of..."

"A group of egotistical bigots who keep getting their asses handed to them by people they claim to be superior to," said Brace.

https://www.nytimes.com/2026/02/27/us/transgender-kansas-dri...

This us a gift link, anyone can read the original

Transgender Kansans Sue After Driver’s Licenses Are Abruptly Canceled

By:Amy Harmon

Two transgender Kansans asked a state judge on Friday to strike down a new law that abruptly invalidated the driver’s licenses of residents who had changed their gender designations.

Are you now or have you ever been empowered? Can you open jars no-one else can open? Can you fit into jars no-one else can fit into? Can you kill with a dirty look? Did you wake up this morning and find yourself in another country without knowing how you got there? Did you wake up this morning and find yourself in another body without knowing how you got there? Do people run screaming when you leave the house? Do you have more than two eyes/ears/arms/legs/heads? Have you ever had wheat rust?

Alan was right.

I just got her CT scan and it is not good.

The two lumps she had in January has gotten worse in her lungs.

The current guess is months but it is hard to tell as the progression is likely exponentially bad.

I have to decide on chemo or not as soon as I get the formal oncology report back as there is no point giving her chemo if the progression has already killed her quality of life.

I hate my life.

For all of you ladies and gentlemen who are in the states crushing transgender lives, you need to be ahead of the threat. I've mentioned before one may get a Colorado driver's license with requested gender on it. If pushed I would take out a PO address in Colorado for a residence and apply for a license transfer from Oklahoma to Colorado. Personally I strongly believe Oklahoma and several other states to follow Kansas in invalidating trans license, making us non citizens.

I can't keep up with writing two books at the same time. I work full time and I've got many interests. It's sad because I was really enjoying writing Derby City, but I need to finish "Mud Creek" first. I know where the story is going to go.

Holy smokes, I just applied to be a vendor at the fifth annual Davis County Pride Festival.

I’ve come a long way from secretly writing wish fulfillment stories to being an openly queer indie author tabling at events.

I gotta admit, it felt a little weird putting in the application. I helped organize the four prior festivals and served as vice-chair, so returning as a vendor feels like I’m coming full circle in the best way.

I was reading Michael Pollan’s new book, A World Appears, this evening. In his book, Pollan discusses the nature of consciousness and how we have democratized consciousness; how we have pushed consciousness downward to other mammals, cephalopods (like octopi), some types of insects (hive minds?), and possibly even plants.

Who does not yearn for a healthy and thriving relationship?

Hello everyone

I just wanted to pop in and say hi. I’m sorry I’ve been a little quiet on the site lately. Life and writing have a way of pulling me in different directions sometimes. While I wasn’t very active here, I was sort of around on Discord, so I haven’t completely disappeared.

And she was watching the last of the current season’s auditions this evening; she had previously recorded it so that she could watch it at her leisure, which obviously turned out to be tonight. The last person they auditioned was singing a song he had written for his father, who had died of leukemia. I wasn’t really paying attention to most of the show as I was reading while she watched, but something made me pay attention to this last audition.

Rhapsody part 6 is available Here

In the world of Rhapsody, where the lines between art, memory, and political gravity blur, my songs attempt to bridge gaps and fill a void.
Here is a glimpse into the sound and soul of the journey:

Fractured Rune just hit 50 orders since its January 20 release. Five. Zero. That may not sound like much in a world where bestseller lists exist and algorithms demand blood sacrifices, but in indie author land this is A Thing. This is fifty real humans who saw a queer, anti-theocratic, mildly unhinged epic fantasy and went, “Yes. That one. I will put this in my brain.” I am vibrating at a frequency normally reserved for malfunctioning machinery.

As you all can see, I have a whole lot of open stories that I have started. A few, I am stuck on the direction I want to take them. In order to combat my gender dysphoria and my ADHD. I am constantly coming up with ideas. I have started many ideas but also abandoned a lot, since I don't see a story beyond the change. I am revisiting the stories and see a clear path forward. I am also constantly learning how to write better, and I have seen the difference in writing styles from the beginning to now.

I put up a little essay about my brother, enjoy!

Recent shooting in small town British Columbia that is making news for all the wrong reasons.

The shooter was a troubled transwoman. From what I have been able to gather thus far she was cyber bullied. The one pictured showed someone that had been through male puberty even though she supposedly transitioned at age 12 then quit the school two years later.

The victims were either adults, two, or children around the same age as her step brother 12.

Small remote redneck Canadian town.

Repeated calls for police which included suicide. Guns.

busy writing that is.

Any proper poet has a desert in their soul and I had not visited mine in weeks, so yesterday Melanie and I drove out to the area where I did most of my growing up, Imperial County, California.

This is the southeasternmost county in the state, a land of bleak hills, sand dunes, alkali dirt, canals and farm fields. And small desert towns like dusty jewels on a beige apron.

Read my latest 7,000 word installment of Rhapsody: Butterfly In a Box

Two new songs just released with lyric videos on YouTube!

Unfinished
The Wishing Well

Warning! Unfinished may lead to uncontrollable leg and hip action, also known as dancing!

This evening, I was exposed to greatness. Colbert’s guest was Ian McKellan, who performed live a speech from Shakespeare’s play Thomas More, which was written some 500 years ago and represents the only work actually preserved in the Bard’s actual handwriting. For political reasons, namely that it was considered seditious when written, the play was first performed in 1967. Ian McKellan was the actor who created the part of Thomas More in that first production of the play; a play which is as fitting in today’s world as it was 500 years ago.

Duets and An Aria for Cami are now fully accessible on BCTS.

yes, we are already 1/12th of the way through 2026!

Mosaic was my very first web-browser back in ... 1993 (I think).

In those early years of the internet commercial websites. largely, did not exists. A few amateurs wrote a single page of Hyper-Text code in text editors and and ran an Apache web-server on their home computers that allowed the World to connect and read their page, see their pictures, understand their lives. It was before Google and most search-engines.

Two words which use the same letters and even sound the same, but have utterly different meanings.

I have noticed writers here using the wrong ones over the years and even in some recently posted offerings.

When your right to exist is a common topic of public debate, every thing you do or say is political.

While trying to feed the birds this morning, I slipped and fell on the ice, busted my face and broke my right arm. The ice is extra dangerous from the snow melting and refreezing. This is all being typed left handed. Stay indoors if at all possible and stay on pavement!!

Sephrena

And I was disgusted by an article based on a podcast recently given by Ryan Helfenbien, the Vice President of Communications & Public Engagement at Liberty University and the Founding Executive Director of the Standing for Freedom Center. Mr. Helfenbien professes to be a “Christian”, but this is his take on the murder of Renee Good by ICE and CBP agents in Minneapolis:

We're buried und a foot of snow, so no work today. I spent the morning mapping out the second half of "Mud Creek"

I'm so excited for this now. This story came together like magic. I struggled with the ending and resolution for over an hour, just contemplating people in my life, stories I've read, my own emotions. Then it came to me, like, how did I not realize it had to end like that.

I'm currently writing Chapter 21, and plan to end the story at Chapter 28. The Story is currently at 31,000 words and should hit 50 I think.

I promised myself that I wouldn’t comment here based on the comments over the past several days……..

But I cannot stand in silence while others bury their heads in the sand hoping that the bogeyman will pass them by. I cannot pretend that I have not seem what I have seen, that what is happening is not happening. But I will only make this post.

For those in Minneapolis who are standing up and being cut down for all of us……..

Hey BG family!

Hope your new year is off to a roaring start. Mine has been sunny with tons of creative flurries. Sorry I've been MIA for so long. Holidays and a huge creative spurt. I wrote 20 songs and finished a novel, all in one month! Now I need to post them so they don't just live in my head and my laptop. Here is the link for the lyric video of the song: Extra (The X-Factor)