to the week!

March is turning into an odd month.

Three years ago, at the beginning of the month, I legally & socially transitioned. Two weeks later I had confirmation from the NHS that I was now legally female for health purposes (and similarly for HMRC re my tax & NI)

My daughter had been born mid month and she turned 25 recently.

I had an idea for a board game called Huggleland.

In the game, the huggles have invited you and your friends to try and catch them in Huggleland, where everything is silly.

Dice, and pawn like figures to represent the players as they make their way around the board, with squares like "the exploding cream pie factory has exploded! lose 1 turn cleaning cream off of you!" or "Bad news, you slipped on a banana peal; Good news, you get roll again to see how far you can slide!"

of exercise

Finally, Wildcat Fall is now an online Kindle Books.

Gift Link:
https://www.nytimes.com/2026/03/19/us/rfk-jr-transgender-car...

Judge Rules That R.F.K. Jr. Overstepped on Transgender Care
The ruling provides temporary relief for 21 states seeking to stop the Trump administration from ending federal funding to hospitals that provide gender-transition care.

Another new week, another new chapter of Gamma girl is up.

https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/110029/guess-im-gamma...

but what is normal?

Europe shifts reliance on big tech away from non-European and proprietary companies. (This is not directly transgender related, though indirectly there is some relevance. But many members of the BCTS community are tech savvy, and there have been many related discussions here before.)

Well, I had an adventurous night. Went to bed early, then was woken out of a sound sleep by the sirens a bit after Midnight. Very windy. Stayed up about an hour and a half, mostly watching Weather Underground on TV, and trying to get the weather radar on my phone to show current conditions. Things got quiet again and I went back to bed. Thunder finally started sounding in the distance. Still sleepy.

Hope other members had things as easy as I did.

And as I am wont to do, I sat with her splitting my attention between reading and watching. To be honest, I have little interest in most of the awards, the sophomoric comedy of Conan O’Brien, or the vast majority of the acceptance speeches. However, I was watching when they remembered those who had passed away in the last year - with special attention given to Rob and Michelle Reiner, Diane Keaton, and Robert Redford.

Hi everyone. Just wanted to say thank you and send kitten cuddles for the warm reception this prodigal kitten has received. It's been over 10 years since I've posted so most of the people here don't know me from Adam or Eve but everyone has been so nice and helpful.

A few of my friends and family were still here. Piper and Sephrena helped me so much and my big Cuz Heather Rose Brown made the ultimate sacrifice and edited my Kittenese into something postable and walked me through everything

So after three failed posting attempts and errors (MY STUPID FAULT), I was finally able to post a new chapter of Gamma Girl.

https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/109947/guess-im-gamma...

Okay so we got a notice a week ago about the owners bringing in another round of roach control, and since I was sick and mom had her arm in a cast, we kind of panicked, but then we got help from Mike and Carol's handyman and we were as done as we could be this morning when we thought they were coming.

Then I looked at the notice again, and realized they are coming on Thursday, not today.

I mean, at least we are ready, but we could have done without the stress, you know?

is now live!

And a few days ago I finished reading The Station’s Late Nite Princess, and started in on Frills, both of which are among my favorites.

In Frills, there is a scene where the main character’s home is toilet papered, the cars covered in shaving cream, and the house egged, by a group of high school students for the 28th time inside of a year. What made this stand out was the news story I saw this evening about a high school teacher in Georgia who was killed Friday night by a group of five teens while they toilet papered his home.

So here i am, trying not to lose this post!

Finally got around to posting a new story. Sorry for the delay. Life sucks sometimes.

https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/109877/guess-im-gamma...

got some bad news about my mom's arm today.

I phoned the hospital about getting her cast off, and was told we were supposed to have it looked at 2 weeks after she broke it, and either they forgot to call us or we missed the call.

So now, if there is damage in there, its been too long to do anything about it. and she has limited mobility in 2 of her fingers.

sighs, I feel like a complete failure in terms of looking after her.

That i posted a blog entry on Wednesday but it seems to have vaporised, please tell me i'm not losing it!

Maddy

Most of my online purchases are through Amazon.

Tonight I saw something on Mark Zuckerberg and what I read surprised me. Apparently he is no friend to gender variant people.

I used to be a Facebook member and one day I got hate mail from someone at Facebook and suddenly, I am one of the enemy.

This is a great surprise.

Gwen Brown

I have just come back with another meeting with Mike ( my personal angel. I wasn't so happy with my makeup this time. I don't get much practice, and I was very nervous going out.

My mother has been very ill and now has dementia. The last time I met with Mike was in November, I was told my mother was dying and had to rush back before I got a chance to dress. She recovered, and told me she went to heaven and was told she had to go back as it wasn't her time..
A near-death experience? You best make up you're own mind. I do believe there is something to it.

Good news: we got laundry and groceries done today.

Bad news: I am now a mass of pain.

"Thanks for the assist, Apex," said Brace, not taking her eyes off Proctor.

"Like you needed it," Apex replied, with a smirk. "Bad boy, here, definitely bit off more than he could chew. Even taking us by surprise he barely held his own. Once you showed up and gave us a breather..."

"You... can't beat... me..." said Proctor, struggling to rise and failing. "I am in the top echelon... of..."

"A group of egotistical bigots who keep getting their asses handed to them by people they claim to be superior to," said Brace.

https://www.nytimes.com/2026/02/27/us/transgender-kansas-dri...

This us a gift link, anyone can read the original

Transgender Kansans Sue After Driver’s Licenses Are Abruptly Canceled

By:Amy Harmon

Two transgender Kansans asked a state judge on Friday to strike down a new law that abruptly invalidated the driver’s licenses of residents who had changed their gender designations.

Are you now or have you ever been empowered? Can you open jars no-one else can open? Can you fit into jars no-one else can fit into? Can you kill with a dirty look? Did you wake up this morning and find yourself in another country without knowing how you got there? Did you wake up this morning and find yourself in another body without knowing how you got there? Do people run screaming when you leave the house? Do you have more than two eyes/ears/arms/legs/heads? Have you ever had wheat rust?

Alan was right.

I just got her CT scan and it is not good.

The two lumps she had in January has gotten worse in her lungs.

The current guess is months but it is hard to tell as the progression is likely exponentially bad.

I have to decide on chemo or not as soon as I get the formal oncology report back as there is no point giving her chemo if the progression has already killed her quality of life.

I hate my life.

For all of you ladies and gentlemen who are in the states crushing transgender lives, you need to be ahead of the threat. I've mentioned before one may get a Colorado driver's license with requested gender on it. If pushed I would take out a PO address in Colorado for a residence and apply for a license transfer from Oklahoma to Colorado. Personally I strongly believe Oklahoma and several other states to follow Kansas in invalidating trans license, making us non citizens.

I can't keep up with writing two books at the same time. I work full time and I've got many interests. It's sad because I was really enjoying writing Derby City, but I need to finish "Mud Creek" first. I know where the story is going to go.

Holy smokes, I just applied to be a vendor at the fifth annual Davis County Pride Festival.

I’ve come a long way from secretly writing wish fulfillment stories to being an openly queer indie author tabling at events.

I gotta admit, it felt a little weird putting in the application. I helped organize the four prior festivals and served as vice-chair, so returning as a vendor feels like I’m coming full circle in the best way.

I was reading Michael Pollan’s new book, A World Appears, this evening. In his book, Pollan discusses the nature of consciousness and how we have democratized consciousness; how we have pushed consciousness downward to other mammals, cephalopods (like octopi), some types of insects (hive minds?), and possibly even plants.

Who does not yearn for a healthy and thriving relationship?

Hello everyone

I just wanted to pop in and say hi. I’m sorry I’ve been a little quiet on the site lately. Life and writing have a way of pulling me in different directions sometimes. While I wasn’t very active here, I was sort of around on Discord, so I haven’t completely disappeared.

And she was watching the last of the current season’s auditions this evening; she had previously recorded it so that she could watch it at her leisure, which obviously turned out to be tonight. The last person they auditioned was singing a song he had written for his father, who had died of leukemia. I wasn’t really paying attention to most of the show as I was reading while she watched, but something made me pay attention to this last audition.

Rhapsody part 6 is available Here

In the world of Rhapsody, where the lines between art, memory, and political gravity blur, my songs attempt to bridge gaps and fill a void.
Here is a glimpse into the sound and soul of the journey:

Fractured Rune just hit 50 orders since its January 20 release. Five. Zero. That may not sound like much in a world where bestseller lists exist and algorithms demand blood sacrifices, but in indie author land this is A Thing. This is fifty real humans who saw a queer, anti-theocratic, mildly unhinged epic fantasy and went, “Yes. That one. I will put this in my brain.” I am vibrating at a frequency normally reserved for malfunctioning machinery.

As you all can see, I have a whole lot of open stories that I have started. A few, I am stuck on the direction I want to take them. In order to combat my gender dysphoria and my ADHD. I am constantly coming up with ideas. I have started many ideas but also abandoned a lot, since I don't see a story beyond the change. I am revisiting the stories and see a clear path forward. I am also constantly learning how to write better, and I have seen the difference in writing styles from the beginning to now.

I put up a little essay about my brother, enjoy!

Recent shooting in small town British Columbia that is making news for all the wrong reasons.

The shooter was a troubled transwoman. From what I have been able to gather thus far she was cyber bullied. The one pictured showed someone that had been through male puberty even though she supposedly transitioned at age 12 then quit the school two years later.

The victims were either adults, two, or children around the same age as her step brother 12.

Small remote redneck Canadian town.

Repeated calls for police which included suicide. Guns.

busy writing that is.

Any proper poet has a desert in their soul and I had not visited mine in weeks, so yesterday Melanie and I drove out to the area where I did most of my growing up, Imperial County, California.

This is the southeasternmost county in the state, a land of bleak hills, sand dunes, alkali dirt, canals and farm fields. And small desert towns like dusty jewels on a beige apron.

Read my latest 7,000 word installment of Rhapsody: Butterfly In a Box

Two new songs just released with lyric videos on YouTube!

Unfinished
The Wishing Well

Warning! Unfinished may lead to uncontrollable leg and hip action, also known as dancing!

This evening, I was exposed to greatness. Colbert’s guest was Ian McKellan, who performed live a speech from Shakespeare’s play Thomas More, which was written some 500 years ago and represents the only work actually preserved in the Bard’s actual handwriting. For political reasons, namely that it was considered seditious when written, the play was first performed in 1967. Ian McKellan was the actor who created the part of Thomas More in that first production of the play; a play which is as fitting in today’s world as it was 500 years ago.